07/22/17 I Am Going To Die - RESET THE CLOCK

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JSGOTI powiedział(a):
Yesterday I was searching in vain for a hit piece callout post against me on the Internet.
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Proof that blocking Phil's access was the best choice.
Phil always liked to think it was a whole "my existence is resistance" deal buy it's currently "we are in ignorance of your existence".
There's so much he wants to draw attention to and have discussed, he was gutted he was cut out of the slingblade thread and even their "break up" didn't garner attention.
Even Greta and Terra are ignoring him.
 
Ostatnio edytowane:
>"everyone wants me to die!"
>develops no job skills that will improve station in life
>commits to being a leech and total asshole, unable to form cohesive personal relationships
>is narcissistic to the point of violence against a disagreeing viewpoint
>covers himself in scribbles, effectively removing himself from the workplace
>spends all-day online looking for asspats that will get him through to the next day like an attention-starved diva

Honestly, Phil, at this point, you've painted yourself into a corner where if you decided to end your life, you'd be completing the last chapter to a novel you've been writing for the last decade and a half. I'd tell you there's so much to live for but honestly, you've drown out everything except the sound of your own potato stimming, so fuck you.
 
Being able to go 5- 7 days without any ideation is a loooong assss time for the suicidal. A recovering suicidal person would wear that time period like it was a badge of pride. Like it's a one week clean AA chip.

He couldn't be more blind to the fact that his narcissism basically makes him immune to suicide.
 
TiggerNits powiedział(a):
Unless he ends up being somer manner of Eldritch horror and he's some undying avatar of filth
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Eh, whatever elder god grants him that will instantly regret it as they realize that he never leaves his hovel and people already avoid him when he does go out. He'd be the worst avatar for disease possible. Besides, we all know Chis is slated to be the next avatar of Papa Nurgle.
 
The last times Phil seriously pretended to kill himself he stood on a bridge for hours posting on Facebook about jumping until John Langley picked him up. Hopefully we can get something like that again.
 
I am quite curious if this post is a response to Slingblade giving him the what-for verbally/semi-physically OR will it elicit a response from the Slingblade. ie "hey cut that shit out I run Trans'Ethics' and I'll get called out for not supporting you"

Orrrrrrrr

The Troonmunity (Troon-community) is just so wise to the bullshit.
 
Coldgrip powiedział(a):
Eh, whatever elder god grants him that will instantly regret it as they realize that he never leaves his hovel and people already avoid him when he does go out. He'd be the worst avatar for disease possible. Besides, we all know Chis is slated to be the next avatar of Papa Nurgle.
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He's got less of a War Hammer vibe and more of a Lovecraftian one. His avatars don't exist to spread ideas, just create existential dread and discomfort, and that may just very well be the only thing Phillipe` is good at
 
Lesbian Sleepover powiedział(a):
I am quite curious if this post is a response to Slingblade giving him the what-for verbally/semi-physically OR will it elicit a response from the Slingblade. ie "hey cut that shit out I run Trans'Ethics' and I'll get called out for not supporting you"

Orrrrrrrr

The Troonmunity (Troon-community) is just so wise to the bullshit.
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Slingblade doesn't give a shit. The only time he ever talks about Phil is if his antics directly impact him. The only times I've ever seen him respond to Phil's posts is when Phil posts a "scared Vikki is going to leave me" and he replies "Not. Going. To. Happen." (lol), and that's only because he's worried about being turfed out without another mark to leech off. And it's not like anyone else really cares - the only time I recall anyone pointing out that he should be supportive was when Phil decided he was asexual and John whined about not being able to stick his dick in a fat, unwashed potato any more.
 
Tragi-Chan powiedział(a):
He probably is depressed, because really who wouldn't be in his situation?
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I know I'd be depressed if I looked in the mirror and saw a repulsive, obese, filthy pig-potato hybrid with obscenities tattooed all over it, then looked over at Toren and realized I wasn't even good enough for that thing, then looked at the squalid hovel where I was living, then realized this was as good as it gets and it just gets worse from here on out.

I'd take a header off the nearest bridge tbh.
 
JSGOTI powiedział(a):
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To those who think that last night was simply another suicidal ideation episode - I have a few things to say about last night.

There will be more nights and days and weeks like this in the future. I have long reached the point where suicidality is a default feeling. It is no longer possible for me to go longer than 5-7 days without one suicidal thought entering my mind. Last night was just so bad that I verbalized it.

At some point I believe that a lot of you will ultimately abandon me - I am betting that half of you will over time. Yesterday I was searching in vain for a hit piece callout post against me on the Internet. Leftbook does have hatred for my guts for me trying to defend myself against transmisogynist cyberbullying and cyberstalking while I was still houseless. I seen it before *cough* 2015 and 2016 *cough* when I houseless in Oakland and three to four steps away from death's door. Shit, the only thing essentially keeping me alive was getting tattooed every two weeks to a month on average during that time.

I am going to put it simply, I am going to die - I am going to do everything possible to fight this before that happens.

I and everyone here needs to accept that I need to be able to be in a position to delay the inevitable

I am really fucking jaded from those almost 6 years of houselessness - and it's not going away. I have Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Dissociative Identity Disorder, and Depression - these were all mental health issues prior to my houselessness. My cyberbullying and cyberstalking problem was another issue prior to my houselessness - actually this one is part and parcel of why it ran almost six years.

I believe that it's time to get cracking on overcompensating and delaying the inevitable death I will see.

It's not the 'if'....it is the 'when'.
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Last nights uneventful post that didn't get any asspats
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So, another Charlie Brown reboot, only this time they cast Linus as a balding, obese wannabe tranny, with fetal alcohol syndrome and autism?

People who genuinely want to commit suicide get it done without telling anyone and begging for free stuff on the internet.
 
TiggerNits powiedział(a):
He's got less of a War Hammer vibe and more of a Lovecraftian one. His avatars don't exist to spread ideas, just create existential dread and discomfort, and that may just very well be the only thing Phillipe` is good at
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Ah yes, the Tattooed Idiot God, Potatoth.
AnOminous powiedział(a):
I know I'd be depressed if I looked in the mirror and saw a repulsive, obese, filthy pig-potato hybrid with obscenities tattooed all over it, then looked over at Toren and realized I wasn't even good enough for that thing, then looked at the squalid hovel where I was living, then realized this was as good as it gets and it just gets worse from here on out.

I'd take a header off the nearest bridge tbh.
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It really is a blessing to him that he's only dimly aware of just how shit his life is. If he ever was hit with the full knowledge of just how beyond fucked his life and future is I have no doubt he'd end it all. Because really, how do you even recover from that? What could be the best you could hope for?
 
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