07/22/17 I Am Going To Die - RESET THE CLOCK

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Wyświetl załącznik 251579

To those who think that last night was simply another suicidal ideation episode - I have a few things to say about last night.

There will be more nights and days and weeks like this in the future. I have long reached the point where suicidality is a default feeling. It is no longer possible for me to go longer than 5-7 days without one suicidal thought entering my mind. Last night was just so bad that I verbalized it.

At some point I believe that a lot of you will ultimately abandon me - I am betting that half of you will over time. Yesterday I was searching in vain for a hit piece callout post against me on the Internet. Leftbook does have hatred for my guts for me trying to defend myself against transmisogynist cyberbullying and cyberstalking while I was still houseless. I seen it before *cough* 2015 and 2016 *cough* when I houseless in Oakland and three to four steps away from death's door. Shit, the only thing essentially keeping me alive was getting tattooed every two weeks to a month on average during that time.

I am going to put it simply, I am going to die - I am going to do everything possible to fight this before that happens.

I and everyone here needs to accept that I need to be able to be in a position to delay the inevitable

I am really fucking jaded from those almost 6 years of houselessness - and it's not going away. I have Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Dissociative Identity Disorder, and Depression - these were all mental health issues prior to my houselessness. My cyberbullying and cyberstalking problem was another issue prior to my houselessness - actually this one is part and parcel of why it ran almost six years.

I believe that it's time to get cracking on overcompensating and delaying the inevitable death I will see.

It's not the 'if'....it is the 'when'.
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Last nights uneventful post that didn't get any asspats
Wyświetl załącznik 251580

I was just thinking we hadn't heard much from Phil lately. I love how be basically tells all his "friends" that hes going to be suicidal forever and they need to just accept that he needs attention all the time. Have we heard anything new about Phil and torren, are they still living together?
 
He never removed his balls you fucking moron.

Sorry AnOminous, but this won't work. The proof has been in the pudding/the writing has been on the wall for a long time already.

I've seen Phil's recent nudes (yes, I admit this), and I know what a mutilated and empty scrotum looks like.

Thats not to say, I actually hope you're right and that Phil really did not have his balls surgically removed.

I WILL BE HAPPY TO LEARN THAT SO MUCH. Phil needs to fucking keep those balls. If he still does have them, of course.
 
Shouldn't he have titled this "I am going to die (in 20 or 30 years most likely)"?

As with others the only part I believe is that he's depressed. He has accomplished nothing in his life and every once in a while he notices. It's probably exhausting to spend over a decade pretending to be the most repressed out of a group of people who compete for that title. Not to mention that group hate each other.

Actually never mind all that stuff. He's probably doing this for ass pats like usual.
 
I only hope he lives long enough to get his balls cut off for real. He can die but I want him to die without any balls.
 
Slingblade doesn't give a shit. The only time he ever talks about Phil is if his antics directly impact him. The only times I've ever seen him respond to Phil's posts is when Phil posts a "scared Vikki is going to leave me" and he replies "Not. Going. To. Happen." (lol), and that's only because he's worried about being turfed out without another mark to leech off. And it's not like anyone else really cares - the only time I recall anyone pointing out that he should be supportive was when Phil decided he was asexual and John whined about not being able to stick his dick in a fat, unwashed potato any more.

As far as I know Toren's probably not there.
He's not moved out but it's a scam were he's only staying with Phil so many nights a week, basically so he isn't classed as a long term tenant and has to pay rent.
Phil's reluctant to tell his actual friends what's going on so I've had no joy digging facts up.
 
Sometimes you just have let the potato rest. He wore himself out with this years Daddy Rape Day celebrations, but the wheel of autism and attention-whoring doesn't stay idle for long.
 
brb resetting the clock

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