Ah okay I can post now. This is Splash. U know, the person you're targeting rn. The person who's URLs are the title of this conversation. I wasn't gonna create an account or interact at all, but it was honestly the misgendering that really got to me. I can deal with people talking shit, but misgendering honestly has a serious effect on both my emotional and physical health, and when I saw you all inviting me to interact, I figured I might as well. I've been working over a decent response while I was waiting to be approved, so this might be kinda long. Oh well.
It's like Leslie Knope says:
"
If I seem too passionate, it’s because I care. If I come on strong, it’s because I feel strongly, and if I push too hard, it’s because things aren’t moving fast enough."
I really
am mentally ill. That's not a self diagnosis, it's not an attempt to get attention, it's not a joke. And that matters a lot to me. I've dealt with tons of shit for my mental illnesses and neurodivergencies and being treated like a human being - a human being
with mental illnesses, not a neurotypical one - means a lot to me. I've been straight up abused for being mentally ill and I care a lot,
a lot, about seeing those who are like me given respect and acknowledgement.
And yeah, I know it seems really silly sometimes! Like, I am aware that the things I say sound straight up insane. I'm aware that it sounds insane to say I'm literally a fictional character. I get it, I really do. I get why you'd laugh. It's not normal! But as much as this will sound like a "special snowflake" thing to say, I'm
not normal. I don't think like "normal" people do. Being "literally a fictional character" kept me alive last summer, when i genuinely planned to kill myself. I suffer from insomnia due to invasive thoughts and delusions at night, and the "tiger angel" system member I talked about? His purpose, when you overlook the system stuff and the stuff you think is weird, is just so that i can get a decent nights rest because I feel like there's a powerful being there to watch over and take care of me.
So yeah! I know I seem funny. And tbh, that's why I didn't bother to interact at first. People will always laugh at me for what I do as a mentally ill person and I wasn't gonna try to defend myself. It was
your invitation that has me here now, so hopefully you can at least hear me out.
To clear up any misconceptions:
- I really am trans and dysphoric - that's a medical term, btw, it means I'm uncomfortable and feel wrong in my own body, it's used to describe the experiences of most trans people, particularly those who transition - and misgendering me really does make me suicidal. That's not uncommon among trans people and I would've called you all straight up transphobes but seeing as there were people who genuinely didn't even know what dysphoria was I'm just gonna call you ignorant. Not using a trans persons pronouns, regardless of if you like them, can be legitimately detrimental to their health.
- My partner is real - I saw people who thought ce was Ovad/they were the same person? Cer URL is lesbiandoe. Ce is completely real and ce's adorable. Here's some cute pictures of cer: http://autisticstarlord.tumblr.com/post/105158373565/lesbiandoe-lesbiandoe-broodylesbian-asked
- For those talking about wishing I "put my creativity to good use" - I actually do write! I beat NaNoWriMo this year. I wrote a story about werewolves and vampires and a demon that comes after their groups. I wanted to write a story with werewolves and vampires against each other that didn't turn into a love triangle, haha. I've actually beaten NaNoWriMo twice in a row.
- I really am not a fan of Tumblr's form of social justice. Not because of the cisphobia or something, I don't care about and even partake in that tbh, but because - like I said - they never fact check, there's no intersectionality (acceptance of people who are part of more than one group, like lesbian trans women for example), and they're really ableist and harass and stalk and attack people often even after they've apologized
That's? It for now I think. I know this was long sorry but here, a genuine response from the Newest Professional Lolcow
