- Dołączono
- 9 Cze 2018
Phil is just so... Phil. He's in a class all his own on the re.tard scale. Wants to be manly. Cut off his source of manliness. Wants to be frightening and intimidating. Nobody will be frightened by a faggot with a surgical vagina between his legs, Phil.This is just another chapter in the long, long book of Phil attempting to feel good about himself by trying to scare other people. It's one of the reasons so many people dislike Phil as a cow (and probably in person too). His whole damn life revolves around dressing, speaking and acting like someone that he thinks people will be too scared to confront. He spouts violent rhetoric all the time because he thinks it makes him look so aggressive that everyone will respect him out of fear. In fact, it just makes him look like a wanker that hates everyone, someone so negative that he has no redeeming features. He genuinely gets off when people see him on the street and cross the road to stay away from him. He thinks how he dresses and all his tattoos make him look frightening and threatening to others.
What he doesn't realise (or tries not to see) is that people don't look at him with fear, they look at him with disgust. People avoid Phil not because he looks frightening and badass, but because he looks like the kind of person who talks to themselves and chimps out on randoms because he's delusional and/or mentally ill. He looks like he smells and is totally nuts. It's not a fear thing, and it's not positive. People just don't want filthy hobos encroaching on their day. Whether Phil recognises this and denies it or is completely oblivious I don't know, but his attempts to gain personal power by playing dressup are plainly obvious. It's why he's so obsessed with firearms and weapons - he thinks by showing them off, people will be intimidated. That's why he collected the spent bullet casings and took them home, to prove that he was all manly and shot a real gun (everyone else just sweeps them up and dumps them as they're trash and a pain in the ass). All in a piss-poor attempt to not look like the fat, re.tarded sped he knows he is and has been seen as for all his life.
Poor Phil. Whatever he tries, it just doesn't seem to work to get people to respect him.
Now the mangina regret is setting in and he's doubling down on other ways to feel like a "real" man because he made the biggest mistake of his fucking life. Something something Freud phallic representation by gun. Except I think he despairs every time he looks down and sees that septic mistake of a surgery (at least partially fused by now) and knows in his disgusting little faggot heart that no matter how many guns he shoots off he will never regrow his penis.