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Whitney Houston On Crack powiedział(a):
would genuinely want to know if paranoid schizophrenia could be effectively controlled by pills. Please, if a medfag is reading this, please enlighten me, I also want to know if that shit is hereditary
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Science rather than medicine but yes, there’s a hereditary predisposition and while it can often be controlled with medication they are not fun drugs to be on. Brutal but I unless love-of-your-life level attraction, I’d avoid. Schizophrenia is something people think of as the ‘positive’ (additive, not good) symptoms like hallucinations and delusions but it’s actually the negative symptoms (flattened affect etc) that make life hardest for most. Those symptoms aren’t really druggable away. It sounds awful but I would t want to get into a relationship with someone with paranoid schizophrenia
Whitney Houston On Crack powiedział(a):
she is a MASSIVE project.
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Women aren’t projects. Don’t do this. It’s not good for you
Hongourable Madisha powiedział(a):
I fucked up a task
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Argh I hate doing this. Sucks and always makes me feel awful. I react really badly and beat myself up too.
 
Scream Aim Fire powiedział(a):
Not the greatest; going through something of a health scare at the moment. and my appointment is still several weeks away. Could be something, could be nothing; not sure just yet. I'll try and update when I get the chance.
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If it turns out to be nothing, you'll regret wasting time and energy worrying about it. If it turns out to be some horrible terminal shit, you'll regret wasting time and energy worrying about it. We worry and stress because it feels like we're doing something about things we can't control, but we aren't. Think about it like being on a rollercoaster. You're already strapped in, and the car is moving. You know that once you start down that first hill, all the anxiety you had going up the climb is gonna be gone, so you might as well just try to relax and enjoy the view.

I've been through more and worse medical shit than most people, so trust me that I know it's hard to get yourself to understand this. If you can, you'll feel better. Even worse case scenario, it's not like you have to do anything anyway. The doctors are the one's who have to do all the actual work.

Everything is going to be alright. You've got people that care about you and are willing to help, even if it's just random internet strangers on a forum for internet retards. You got this.
 
dealing with debt, and missing a place i can never go back to
i’d had the steps towards my dream job laid out, worked towards it for literal years, and then my boss went psycho on someone else. real eye-opener moment that made me realize i was his favorite employee in a deeply uncomfortable way. got the fuck out, but i still sometimes ruminate about how life couldve been if that hadn’t happened
c’est la vie
 
Life is slowly improving. Sleep has been... weird. Sporadic but deep, which is unusual for me. Not terrible by my standards though. New job is starting to stabilize. It's more work than I'm used to, but not as overwhelming or as long hours as I was afraid of. Drinking is slightly up and I'm not sure why... but for me that's not a high bar, and I'm not worried YET.

Been going shooting a lot lately. Like, 2-3 times a week. I can afford to do that now, but that's not even the reason. My dad died a couple years ago, and he was big into guns. I always felt bad about going shooting without him, but he rarely had the time. And when he was there it was kind of intimidating. He wasn't doing it on purpose, it was just one of those things. So despite having owned guns half my life, I kinda suck at shooting. I still do, but sucking at something is the first step toward being sort of good at something, and I am now making a concentrated effort to git gud.
 
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Basically I'm suffering from a severe case of self loathing and it is both caused by and feeding into three 'insurmountable issues' in my life that I can never see myself getting over(religion, getting married and my overall objective/defeatist feelings regarding my birth/country).
It's like an endless loop of using these issues to try and motivate myself towards self improvement which works for a while and then suddenly a switch is flipped and I use them as an excuse to get lazy, self destructive and do shit that makes me loathe myself even more, which means the next time I decide to get motivated there's always this niggling feeling at the back of my mind whispering that I don't deserve any kind of happiness or contentment which leads to even more self loathing.
Maybe one day I'll shit or get off the pot but it sucks simply not having anyone to talk to about it besides myself and knowing in great detail what's wrong about a lot of things but not a single thing regarding how to properly fix it.
 
I had a dream last night that I got really drunk, got mad at another Farms user, then tried and miserably failed to write a lolcow thread about that user. I was rightly getting raked over the coals for including shit like "they're shy" and "they don't have a good personality."
This is the first time that Collaborative Data Services has appeared in my dreams. Wat mean?
 
my penis is on fire powiedział(a):
I had a dream last night that I got really drunk, got mad at another Farms user, then tried and miserably failed to write a lolcow thread about that user. I was rightly getting raked over the coals for including shit like "they're shy" and "they don't have a good personality."
This is the first time that Collaborative Data Services has appeared in my dreams. Wat mean?
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Bro you are way to much on KF if you dream about it lol
 
What a crazy past two weeks, yeeessh.

First off, met a woman into anime who loved gay boy sex. I was like "Bitch, I ain't into that." and she was like "Oh, I have a boyfriend too." and I said "lmao, wtf, you making that nigga watch gay anime boys buttfuck each other? Gross. Break up with him." and she was like "No!" and I was like "Fine, then I'll spread a rumor that you boyfriend loves gay buttsex with minors to all your friends so they insult him so much you break up." - Anyways, long story short, don't know how that happened.

Second, working as my first day as a doctor, get some dude who think he is per-diabietic. He was like "Uh, I got headaches" and I was like "Nah, that's probably AIDS.... and diabetes. Anyways. You should make a will and also maybe like, a bucket list? Just in case. I'll do testing, I guess." so I guess my diplomatic dialogue could be a bit better.

Finally, at my second new job as HR, I have been just rubber stamping declines and getting away with it, because it makes my job so much easier. I wonder how long I can keep doing this until I get yelled at? But in short, it's pretty rad and I totes recommend getting into HR.
 
Edgelord Vampire powiedział(a):
I'm having one of those existential crises centered around what happens after death and consciousness in general.
The fact that there are no concrete answers is what's most terrifying.
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It doesn't matter, and if it does matter you'll find out when you cross the other side. Live your life as you are. Do good by people, be good. Choose love, and it's just a ride.

What matters is now. Not later. Not when you die. What matters is what people will remember about you.

I used to jumpscare myself with thoughts of death but after a while you stop wondering about it.
 
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