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[Otterly]

would genuinely want to know if paranoid schizophrenia could be effectively controlled by pills. Please, if a medfag is reading this, please enlighten me, I also want to know if that shit is hereditary

Science rather than medicine but yes, there’s a hereditary predisposition and while it can often be controlled with medication they are not fun drugs to be on. Brutal but I unless love-of-your-life level attraction, I’d avoid. Schizophrenia is something people think of as the ‘positive’ (additive, not good) symptoms like hallucinations and delusions but it’s actually the negative symptoms (flattened affect etc) that make life hardest for most. Those symptoms aren’t really druggable away. It sounds awful but I would t want to get into a relationship with someone with paranoid schizophrenia

she is a MASSIVE project.

Women aren’t projects. Don’t do this. It’s not good for you

I fucked up a task

Argh I hate doing this. Sucks and always makes me feel awful. I react really badly and beat myself up too.

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

Not the greatest; going through something of a health scare at the moment. and my appointment is still several weeks away. Could be something, could be nothing; not sure just yet. I'll try and update when I get the chance.

 

[RougeRed]

Not the greatest; going through something of a health scare at the moment. and my appointment is still several weeks away. Could be something, could be nothing; not sure just yet. I'll try and update when I get the chance.

If it turns out to be nothing, you'll regret wasting time and energy worrying about it. If it turns out to be some horrible terminal shit, you'll regret wasting time and energy worrying about it. We worry and stress because it feels like we're doing something about things we can't control, but we aren't. Think about it like being on a rollercoaster. You're already strapped in, and the car is moving. You know that once you start down that first hill, all the anxiety you had going up the climb is gonna be gone, so you might as well just try to relax and enjoy the view.

I've been through more and worse medical shit than most people, so trust me that I know it's hard to get yourself to understand this. If you can, you'll feel better. Even worse case scenario, it's not like you have to do anything anyway. The doctors are the one's who have to do all the actual work.

Everything is going to be alright. You've got people that care about you and are willing to help, even if it's just random internet strangers on a forum for internet retards. You got this.

 

[The Last Stand]

I'm exhausted from looking for employment.

Agreed, I'm sorry to hear that. The solace I have is that a few people here are in the same boat.

 

[AnOminous]

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upgraded from an s10 to an s26 ultra. i have photographed milhouse in excellent quality.

Can Milhouse be a meme now?

 

[queens of the stone age]

dealing with debt, and missing a place i can never go back to
i’d had the steps towards my dream job laid out, worked towards it for literal years, and then my boss went psycho on someone else. real eye-opener moment that made me realize i was his favorite employee in a deeply uncomfortable way. got the fuck out, but i still sometimes ruminate about how life couldve been if that hadn’t happened
c’est la vie

 

[Sneaky lurker]

Can a janny delete my doublepost? I can't do it for some reason

I asked for the doublepost to be deleted not the original nigga

 

[Lord of the Large Pants]

Life is slowly improving. Sleep has been... weird. Sporadic but deep, which is unusual for me. Not terrible by my standards though. New job is starting to stabilize. It's more work than I'm used to, but not as overwhelming or as long hours as I was afraid of. Drinking is slightly up and I'm not sure why... but for me that's not a high bar, and I'm not worried YET.

Been going shooting a lot lately. Like, 2-3 times a week. I can afford to do that now, but that's not even the reason. My died a couple years ago, and he was big into guns. I always felt bad about going shooting without him, but he rarely had the time. And when he was there it was kind of intimidating. He wasn't doing it on purpose, it was just one of those things. So despite having owned guns half my life, I kinda suck at shooting. I still do, but sucking at something is the first step toward being sort of good at something, and I am now making a concentrated effort to git gud.

 

[AnOminous]

I asked for the doublepost to be deleted not the original nigga

Life sucks since @Trombonista is no longer here to merge doubleposts. Instead we have tardmods.

 

[BiggestKai]

Basically I'm suffering from a severe case of self loathing and it is both caused by and feeding into three 'insurmountable issues' in my life that I can never see myself getting over(religion, getting married and my overall objective/defeatist feelings regarding my birth/country).
It's like an endless loop of using these issues to try and motivate myself towards self improvement which works for a while and then suddenly a switch is flipped and I use them as an excuse to get lazy, self destructive and do shit that makes me loathe myself even more, which means the next time I decide to get motivated there's always this niggling feeling at the back of my mind whispering that I don't deserve any kind of happiness or contentment which leads to even more self loathing.
Maybe one day I'll shit or get off the pot but it sucks simply not having anyone to talk to about it besides myself and knowing in great detail what's wrong about a lot of things but not a single thing regarding how to properly fix it.