How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Maid Maple Ying]

I'm tired of listening to my coworkers go on and on about politics unprompted, and how much they hate Drumpf, and how Stephen Colbert is a national hero, and whatever other aging libtard verbal diarrhea of the day. You're all so old and gay and vapid, shut the fuck up. I just want to work and go home, dammit.

Simi like coming probem cross so many line people adicked to leadership as ideal love or bateshuond more shit for them safes pull fucking bastion tea party on every leadership burn out niggger shits problem stacks… heat talking more….

 

[thog]

Simi like coming probem cross so many line people adicked to leadership as ideal love or bateshuond more shit for them safes pull fucking bastion tea party on every leadership burn out niggger shits problem stacks… heat talking more….

I have no idea what you're saying but I think I agree.

 

[Betonhaus]

I’m doing ok, but I’m treading water. My parents are planning to sell their acreage and move to the city maybe next year or so, and they’re planning to get a place off the artificial lake that people sail boats on. I’m tempted to suggest that I rent a room from them and help with the bills a little as the math works out and they might seriously consider it, but that would basically set me up to committing to be their caretaker for the rest of their lives.

On the other hand I’d have near-beachfront property to myself whenever they’re away.

I feel like the whole move to “kick the kids out of the nest young” has been destructive to society and I get along fine with my parents, but the entire thing is somewhat complicated

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

Update for those wondering:
I am sheltered for the time being. Not for very long but I am okay.

I took my time coming. I had a nice drive up here. The air became colder hissing by my window and that summer breeze felt so nice on my face as I left my old land and a new world actively unfolded around me.

I landed in town and it couldn't have been warmer than 65° outside. Walked around a district and visited some hipster bars before meeting my brother . Talked about different music genres and ate fast food on the back of his truck at midnight. His music taste is even more pretentious and gay than mine is. I'm proud of him.

Woke up this morning to a cold Soviet gray day outside. Grabbed some Ozium to spray around after having smoked some Black and Milds on the way last night, because fuck you I'm smoking in the car.

Drove the rental car in, dropped it off. Rode my bike around town looking for a way to get cash back for a while so I could have fare for the bus after having used my one dollar on the first ticket.


Parents are getting old. Aging fast. Things aren't going great for them. Won't go into the details but seeing if last night filled me with an existential dread and a deep sadness that's almost unequaled.
Doesn't excuse any of their actions. And I'm not blaming myself for everything, but I still felt a deep guilt that I wasn't further in life, that I had spent so much time mucking about that I wasn't in a stable place where I could make sure they were okay. Thought of conversations I could have handled better, but if we're being realistic... No, those all went how they did, I did the best with what I was given, despite how nice it would be to claim in hindsight that I could have done things better.
Don't know if there really is an honest answer to any of this, other than it lit a fire under my ass that I wasn't going to have my life end up like that. Still filled with an overwhelming sorrow. Sometimes I'm somehow narrow minded and selfish that I think everyone's doing great and is sailing just fine. There was a time in my life where I wanted some justice, some equalization of things for these people. But now... I just feel so fucking bad for them and just want still somehow to make them happy, knowing that that's not what I realistically should do for myself or them.
I just want them to be proud of me and happy.

The one thing I've kept having is why didn't I do this sooner? Money is not great, so that's going to suck pretty soon. Really could have handled my finances any other way than I did and would be alright by now. I don't even have a habit, so what was my excuse? Still though... Yeah.

It's so beautiful. People are so sweet and kind here. And I'm not even staying long term. To think there's places dozens of times bigger than where I came from just like this. With sights and sounds and feelings you could only pray for when you're in a small tucked in place. There's people who are loving and wonderful.

Honestly thinking about the next move. As much as I'd want to be Caine from Kung Fu or do the Bruce Banner backpack walk, seeing the homeless around here makes me understand most of the time you're just not that. Still would like to do that. But also just getting out of my town got me realizing I don't have to make so many decisions as a reaction to get away from stuff. I have a clarity where I can be someplace to get a solid enough foundation to really actually do something with some level headedness. Not saying I want to be a bum with guard rails. But I'm saying I don't have to run away from things so much. I can see the world and still not be retarded. I feel like for the first time I'm actually running towards something rather than away from everything.

I don't want to be some dude doing H while sleeping in a dumpster, but also I don't really feel like I could be a regular average well to do citizen with a fat mortgage like everyone else. And that's okay! The great thing about life is you can make your own recipes.

So yeah. This is one of those things I thought at one point I'd never do. But now I'm here. Been talking about this on here for what... 3 years now?
Been thinking about it much longer. Wait I've been on here with you niggers how long? Wow time flies.
But also... Here I am. Who cares how long it takes if and when you get there?
That's the beautiful thing about life. You spend so much time thinking of things that you'll get somewhere, someday that you think will have this big fanfare and be like in the movies. You wonder sometimes if you deserve those things, if you can get them. You plan them, hold onto them. And then suddenly, hey there you are.
Said it many times over the years but truthfully and completely with everything in me...
Thank you all who have supported me over the years. The advice, the feedback, the find words, the hope, the faith. Some of you I truly wish I had the honor of thanking in person. You have made me such a better, more rounded, stronger person than I was before.
So thank you all.

I'm here.

 

[Quijibo69]

Welp, I am fired. Should've sucked ass, but nope, fuck those people, even if I die starving on the street when my rainy day fund is kill. I love how they said some good-old "threat people like you would threat yourself". Almost had me replying "welp, try it then, unless all you do is screaming and blaming yourself". I wasn't the best employee, but they were the shittiest bosses I've ever had, that's for sure.

At least, I can have some peace before I start job surfing.

Hope you get a better job! I have an interesting job right now. If I get fired from the job, leaks ahoy! I still have my training sheets and my booklets.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

Why would you say this?

Yeah some of my posts have been a little cringe and TMI but I think that's a bit much.
Not in the nuthouse. Visiting family before trying to do anything.
I'm actually doing okay. Scared obviously but happy. I know a lot of my mistakes are what led me here in the first place. Things might suck for a bit but I'm happy to see my brother and be away from a lot of stress for a second. Don't know what the next move is but I'm just hopeful for once, despite things seeming really dour. If that's cringe and lame I don't know what to tell you.

 

[Silas]

Well I'm doing better than that guy

 

[YWNBAM]

Fellas never date a woman that says she's bisexual, or reads Yuri/Yaoi.

You dated a fujoshit knowingly? Sorry to victimblame, fella, but it's all on you.



It's like when a woman decides to date a hentai-addicted yuricuck and then goes all Pikachu face when he starts sucking dick and crossdressing behind her back.

Any relationship is like a house. In such cases, the house foundation was build using rotten wood.

 

[Blewberry Nausea]

I have decided to take a dramatic career shift.

I don’t post here so quick summary: my field is mostly warehouse, forklifts, merchandising, and well some inventory and retail but I haven’t done that in a while.

But mostly I had to lean off that and do lamer shit that allowed me to post here all the time while still making money. Shit like sitting on my ass and just making sure people didn’t try to leave their beds.

shit is easy sure. Shit is also mind-numbing. And you can guess who else is hired for a job like this. America’s brightest! Which is just so self-affirming even.

So recently I said fuck that, I would rather do ANYTHING ELSE than stay being the equal of nigger babysitters.

So I am going back to school to learn to work as a WASTEWATER TECHNICIAN! I WILL CLEAN MY CITIES’ SEWAGE SO THEY CAN SHOWER IN PEACE!

Edit: wait shit I just realized that made it sound I stopped working in warehousing to post on KiwiFarms. No I had to do that because of family being sick and other things jesus. The being online too much was just a side effect lol

 

[Nameless One]

You dated a fujoshit knowingly? Sorry to victimblame, fella, but it's all on you.

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It's like when a woman decides to date a hentai-addicted yuricuck and then goes all Pikachu face when he starts sucking dick and crossdressing behind her back.

Any relationship is like a house. In such cases, the house foundation was build using rotten wood.

I wrote that a day after it happened to me when I was still pretty upset. You're reducing her to a caricature. She was really good to me, all things considered and I wish her well, whatever happens to her. It was me who fucked things up between me and her. It wasn't her fault. It was completely my fault. I fucked it up so terribly, I should have (A) left her sooner to spare us both from what happened, and (B), treated her better. I did not. But I wanted to have my cake and eat it too, so I stayed and love blinded me to the foundation you're talking about. She left me, and the worst happened instead. I probably deserved worse. I'm just thankful it happened so fast.

She is my first ex and I am not terribly ashamed of her, more than I am ashamed of myself for failing her. It was a valuable learning experience.

That'll be the only thing I have to say about this so the thread isn't shit up more from the tourists.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

Seeing all the relationship issues on here and looking at my own kind of reinforced something I've thought for a while.
I think if you consistently are finding cluster b partners or are failing at romantic attempts, you should take that as a definitive note to check your own priorities.
For the guy debating which flavor of crazy he should date, id suggest none honestly. It sucks because the picking are slim. You don't want to be a monk forever. And crazy women can be kind, interesting and fun to engage with. But I think a lot of this comes from a lack of self respect that gets reinforced the more you fall into the traps.
Keep in mind, that's not a "The woman is at fault for the husband beating her" or "The reason you can't get laid is because you're a terrible person."
But there is a thorough line where people who have no boundaries or haven't learned to properly care for themselves end up dating the woman with BPD or the narcissist husband.

Obviously everyone's a little nutty, but I think its something that can be avoided more if people just said no. I'm not doing this.

Also ditto on Otterly's post. If they're not going out of their way, don't fool yourself into thinking there's interest. Even if they are, look realistically at the person who IS going out of their way. Shit tests aren't real. Don't kid yourself.

Not saying the answer is just hitting the gym or anything. But people put all their chips in one basket. There's a lot of divorce out there. Doesn't mean you shouldn't try to find happiness. Just saying people are different. There's never going to be a single other person that can completely fulfill you. The closest one there is is you. And that usually takes most people decades of spiritual enlightenment and introspection, or just having a iq below 80.

"You're one to talk considering your post history." Yeah no shit, I AM the one to talk. Don't do the same shit. Easier said than done.

 

[YWNBAM]

You're reducing her to a caricature.

Sure, degenerate faghags can have other sides to them. Still doesn't change the fact you went for a degenerate faghag because you are pathetic+touch-starved and got burnt. Retarded men back these goonnets up until they get a full taste of their toxicity and run back crying.

It was me who fucked things up between me and her. It wasn't her fault. It was completely my fault.

Maybe if you let her sit on the cuck chair while you get fucked in the ass, she will forgive you. C'mon, you still have the chance to patch things up with the cheater, Mr.Cuck!

 

[Nameless One]

Sure, degenerate faghags can have other sides to them. Still doesn't change the fact you went for a degenerate faghag because you pathetic+touch-starved and got burnt. Retarded men back these goonnets up until they get a full taste of their toxicity and run back crying.


Maybe if you let her sit on the cuck chair while you get fucked in the ass, she will forgive you. C'mon, you still have the chance to patch things up with the cheater, Mr.Cuck!

Odd fantasies ma'am.

 

[YWNBAM]

Odd fantasies ma'am.

Are they really fantasies if your fujoshit gf enacted it all on you and still cucked you with other fujoshits to feel better about herself? Run further lip service for her, after all it worked out so well for you in the end.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

Welp... this thread got really toxic the last couple of hours.

Lost pets, failed romance, job circumstances, lack of finances. Whatever it is, no matter how retarded you are, I hope all you guys find your peace.
Remember friends, best and worst thing about life is nothing lasts forever.

 

[Terminally Late and Gay]

Can’t find a better job. And have been looking for about two years. Thing is I live rurally so many jobs that I’d probably get easily are far too far away for me.

Then I finally a get a call for a job. It’s a fucking jeet with broken barely intelligible English. And thus the slaving away sending resumes continue.

 

[Harry Dresden]

I betrayed her first I guess with my fuckups. And then she betrayed me worse, sicced her girl friends on me, couldn't even break up with me properly, and might have been cheating on me with them.

I felt bad until they tried to harass me. And now my love that I had for her faded completely, knowing she was in on it too.

Fellas never date a woman that says she's bisexual, or reads Yuri/Yaoi.

On a fucking Friday! I can't believe how horrible I felt earlier when she probably hasn't given a shit about me for weeks. It's absurd. We only survived a year and one month, and it was the closest I ever got to someone. I did fuck it all up, I did deserve to be left but some things go far into petty drama and trifles territory. Every ex girlfriend I've ever had got their shitty friends on me. Maybe it's a defensive thing, but I ain't said a word more. We had a goodbye-less breakup, exchanged belongings and everything, and I passed it to her friend and said it was nice to meet you, she did the fake smile and said it was nice to meet you too.
Texts me hours later with a bunch of niggerbabble, then calls me the two faced one to start with her spiel.

Water off my back. Good riddance. Always trust your gut on THOSE female friends who are against your best interests. They're a skeptic crowd. And just never date someone who lives even just hours away unless you can see them often. Ever. This sperging long distance texting bullshit don't work when you're someone else on the keyboard compared to your IRL self. Now I'm just mad at the time I've fucking wasted, she has a support group to fall back on and I have fuck-all aside from few. Just sharing. Don't repeat my mistakes. Young love makes a fool of us all. Don't date non religious or agnostic women or men if you're a believer. It's the worst mistake.

I guess lowering my standards ended up netting me with what I deserve. But her love made quite a damn fool of me and it's only me I'll really blame as the catalyst. It felt amazing. The sex was cool. I don't regret that. Though, deciding to have dyke sex with your friend the day you break up with your boyfriend of 1 year plus, lies or not it speaks volumes about your character and soul.

This has to be the cringiest post I have ever read. Why would you voluntarily share this information with the internet?

 

[AnOminous]

Stopped smoking weed 24/7 and (surprise, surprise) I no longer feel like a retard bumbling through the day. Now I'm realizing how much of a nuisance it was to be high all the time.

This is pretty much how I quit weed too. I never even decided "fuck this I'm quitting weed." I just ran out one day, had no connection to get more, didn't bother finding another, and in a week or so, I thought "wait I'm not completely retarded now." Never looked back.

Insomnia is back with a vengeance. Slept maybe three hours without hitting deep sleep at all, now woke up an hour before my alarm. I don't feel that destroyed, though, body and mind must've gotten used to it somewhat.

I've been back to sleeping at least eight hours uninterrupted. This was after an insane level of inability to sleep where I spent three days entirely unable to sleep to the point of hallucinating. Somehow this resolved into a semi-normal sleep pattern, although the eight hour period appears to drift around. I have nothing resembling a circadian rhythm.

 

[AIDShaver69]

Ironic how the people here are sperging about weed. I'm in the car with a shitton of weed ready to try to overdose on my anti-psychotics again cause I'm a pussy. Birthday is coming up, I don't know if I should wait then. Everything was going so good, I don't know what the fuck I fucked up now, but now I don't give a shit, I say fuck all to it. All I have to say is I need a 6+ foot Scandinavian girl free of genetic disorders and mental illness bullshit to fix my bloodline, or if I ruin hers, fuck it there's always abortion. Autism is a plague to society and anyone with it should do the future generations a favour and remove themselves from the gene pool.

 

[stupid frog]

I'm in the car with a shitton of weed ready to try to overdose on my anti-psychotics again cause I'm a pussy.

Don't be a retard, buddy.