Holy shit that was a wild read.
I find it fascinating how troonism, by trying to embody what they find attractive in the opposite sex, makes themselves hideous. Sure a woman can pass better as a manlette, But women care about looks much less than men, they care more about status. not just wealth, but social status. And a pooner will never be able to get the status of a real succesful man. Similarly to how a man will never get the reproductive beauty of a real woman.
First, from around the age of puberty until early 30s, you are basically in heat. Your body has you thinking about sex so much because it wants you to reproduce by accident while pursuing sex. Sex isnt really that important or that much fun. Your obsession with it will last a very short time of your entire life. Maybe a decade and a half. You are definitely porn sick. You need to stop watching porn and consuming erotic content. Entirely. Treat it like an alcoholic treats alcohol. Not even a sip.
The reality of nature is that you were born with certain buffs and debuffs as a woman, a part of the precious sex. Unlike men, you have inherent value. a value you won't begin to appreciate until its diminished by age. Your body is geared towards childbirth and being a caretaker. The former a man will never know the joys of, the latter men will never be as proficient as you in. Many women I know, sadly, never enjoyed being a woman until they birthed their first child. But that doesnt have to be you.
There are great things about being a woman, and you need to start finding them ASAP. usually, women given the nature of child birth and menstruation, naturally look to their social groups for guidance on this. As by the time they gain the life experience to love themselves, if ever, it'll be near the end of your reproductive window. Dont be one of those women. You will regret not having children, you will never regret having children. Never. The love for your own child is magical in a way nothing else compares. If you cant have children, become a caretaker to your family or community.
But since you are pooning out, your social group fucking sucks and has failed you. This doesnt mean you aren't accountable for figuring your shit out. Dont grow bitter by the lack of guidance, seek out better guidance. Many people with diseased social networks, both boys and girls, finds that guidance at church. especially the orthodox church. Christianity has centuries of raising beautiful healthy souls. Don't start going because you believe in God, go because you need to be saved. And make sure to volunteer as much as possible. Dont just passively go to Sunday liturgy and expect God to personally come down and sort your shit out for you. Thats not how it works.
Realize there are industries set up to make you miserable and profit from that misery. Don't trust psychology. That shit can't even cure depression and has only ever had success in creating manipulative advertisements. You will never find fullfillment, joy, or peace by hyper focusing on your self. We were all put here for others. Navel gazing will make you more sick.
Lastly, life isnt and rpg. As a woman, you were born with certain buffs. as you are growing aware, you can't just respec with male buffs. All pooning out will do, will be spitting in the face of God's gifts to you. You won't become more manly, just less womanly.
So, to summarize.
- STOP CONSUMING ALL PORN. Some people can, but you can not.
- Start learning how to love being a woman. take this seriously.
- Find guidance through joining a good church and volunteering.
- Find a husband and have children. I didnt talk about this, but if you aren't damned to being gay (mentally ill), then you'll never regret doing this. Find a husband with low libido. If you are gay then never have kids, children do best with a mother and father. join a caretaking profession instead.
