Confession of a trans masc zoomer - thoughts of a madman, because you love to see it

[Lost at sea]

That sure was a read.

at worst - it gives me paint.

You get the Miscrosoft program?

If I ever get schizopilled

It sounds like you are already on your way there.

Anyway, you might be one of the few trannies that I might actually feel bad for (keyword on 'might'). From what I read, it's clear you actually have some deeper problems that the whole trannydom actually exacerbates. I can't give any real advice that hasn't already been told to you before by other people in this thread. I think you are actually too stuck on the whole binary of being female or male. Like, you feel that your true self is more aligned with masculine traits; thus, you conclude that you should have been a man but life gave you lemons and now you are stuck in the "wrong body." My personal theory is that if people actually accept that they don't necessarily need to be the perfect image of a man or a woman, trannyism would actually decrease though never to 0. Most of the time, the reason people don't feel comfortable in their body is because they have a skewed perception of what they should actually be. Now, this theory works better for people who just seem 'confused,' rather than the few who are genuinely so gender dysphoric to the point of feeling repulsed by their own body and would need some actual psychological help, or those who are just porn-rotted coomers who are too far gone to save. Still, chopping parts of your body off or pumping yourself full of hormones is not the solution, at best, it's a temporary band-aid. You might try to warp yourself into what you actually want to be, but no matter what society or the medical consensus says or validates, in the deep reaches of your mind, you'll always know that you will never be the gender you actually want to be. Whatever you actually want to do with your life, the only thing I can say is that I hope you find some sort of peace of mind someday.

 

[Sargon's wife's son]

Have you considered stop being a dirty lesbo carpet muncher? You know, it's funny. Every lesbian I know, after they got married and had kids was no longer miserable. Maybe beating a dyke is with your problem. Find a nice man in cooking clean for him. And you will be appreciated.

 

[Gaystapo]

I don't think the "Stop being a lesbian" advice will work. What I say is that they should actually try acting like a man, a "toxic masculine" one. If you truly want to be a man, then you have to understand the male role. And that you're on your own. There is no one to save you. No one gives a fuck about your crying and whining. And if you can't handle that, then you're not a man. It's really as simple as that. Of course no woman would want you if you're not able to be a stable protector. They wouldn't want you even if you had a dick and were this neurotic. Mental state is inner work, not something that can be fixed through external validation and artificial medications/hormones. Pumping your body full of hormones will likely only make you more neurotic.

 

[BIG SHOT Autos]

Have you considered stop being a dirty lesbo carpet muncher? You know, it's funny. Every lesbian I know, after they got married and had kids was no longer miserable. Maybe beating a dyke is with your problem. Find a nice man in cooking clean for him. And you will be appreciated.

While a huge chunk of homosexual behavior is mental or spiritual, not everyone snaps out of it. There's plenty of ex-gay Christians who didn't become automatically "straight", they just realized the lifestyle is bogus and proceeded to celibacy instead of acting on urges. Family isn't for everyone regardless of sexuality.

I don't think the "Stop being a lesbian" advice will work. What I say is that they should actually try acting like a man, a "toxic masculine" one. If you truly want to be a man, then you have to understand the male role. And that you're on your own. There is no one to save you. No one gives a fuck about your crying and whining. And if you can't handle that, then you're not a man. It's really as simple as that. Of course no woman would want you if you're not able to be a stable protector. They wouldn't want you even if you had a dick and were this neurotic. Mental state is inner work, not something that can be fixed through external validation and artificial medications/hormones. Pumping your body full of hormones will likely only make you more neurotic.

Not gonna lie, at some point it tells more about the world than it does about an individual man...

That said, while the expectations for men are higher, women aren't completely free from this as well. I have a personal lolcow that whines non-stop, it's honestly as repulsive to me and my friends as it is to hear the same from a wimpy man from the same friend group. It is generally more tolerated for sure, but this behavior is a dead end. There's a major difference between complaining, asking for help or advice, and... I'm not sure if there's a separate word for whatever this is? It's the grown up equivalent of not getting a random toy at the store.

Granted, if OP's a zoomer, especially on a younger side, she may be in her late teens or early 20s, so it's... somewhat alright, being in your 20s is like teenagehood+. But growing up is inevitable. A time will come when rants like these will just further highlight spiritual poverty rather than come off as genuine tornment. And that will make any relationship harder, even friendship. Something needs to be done internally.

 

[harmacist]

stop watching porn

 

[NoCockatrice]

stop drinking

Nah, I don't drink

This is a do as I say, not as I do, but keep not drinking. I infact am more understanding of this gay post if this was the objective.

One spergout on kf a day keeps the vodka away

Yeah, sure, you're not getting this shit from online interactions at all.

Everybody knows some online slang. Like I sad before, I was not in lgbt circles.

After all you're so not into men you want to look, act, be perceived as and wear them like a suit of skin and do to women what a man is designed to do

No, this is what fujoshi cosplayers do (they are the female versions of agp). I don't. I'm into what I'm into, and I know what I'm into. Simple as.

So go off them completely for 3 months and see what resets.

Tried. Nothing changed for good.

bitching on the internet

Mf, we're on kiwifarms

strenuous exercise to the point of sweating, muscle repair, and endorphin reward.

Agree. Actual good advice. I do workout.

Get on antidepressants and kill your libido

Tried

everyone with deep problems knows the solution

Ngl, sounds like a bit of bullshit

You go on weird websites and watch crazy people's content.

No (aside from kiwifarms). I don't even like ContraPoints. I said so in the post. Read.

It's okay to just be... celibate.

Celibate my ass. I want some PUSSY

 

[AMHOLIO]

This reads like a Reddit post. Even if you were to be born with a dick, and wrote a whiney post about not getting laid, people would still call you a faggot.

You could rewrite NoCockatrice's rant as a cis person writing it all out and it wouldn't change much and still be as embarrassing. This is a weird cry for attention and should be discussed with a psychologist instead of going on the net to beg for people online to make fun of you and give you attention.

 

[NoCockatrice]

discussed with a psychologist

You see, that costs money

embarrassing

going on the net

That is free

 

[Tram Fan]

Alright guys, the author of the thread is a 10 inch dick guy and he's just making fun of all of you. If he were a newfag I'd be like yeah whatever but there is no fucking way you're on kiwifarms since 2024 and you don't notice it's a bad idea to admit to troonism IN THE FUCKING THUNDERDOME.

 

[Super Mario Brothers]

Celibate my ass. I want some PUSSY

Okay you know what? Fine. If you went as a cis lesbian you'd have a higher chance of getting pussy than pooning out. You still wouldn't get the same chance as a cis man but it'd be WAY higher. You are basically a volcel at this point. Even cis lesbians are less sad than pooners since they choose their own dick anyway (pegging).

 

[Gaystapo]

You could rewrite NoCockatrice's rant as a cis person writing it all out and it wouldn't change much and still be as embarrassing. This is a weird cry for attention and should be discussed with a psychologist instead of going on the net to beg for people online to make fun of you and give you attention.

This is OP:

(can't find the original uncensored version)

 

[Nickel Silver]

While I sympathize with your awareness that you will never be a man, your obsession with sex needs to go.

The biological purpose of sex is to procreate and have children. Only in modern times has it been feasible to seek sexual pleasure for pleasure's sake rather than it being a reward for fulfilling a biological need. The result is the moral decay of the West.

People need a purpose to life beyond base pleasures and self-interest, otherwise future generations will have no future. Y'all need Jesus.

 

[Gaystapo]

While I sympathize with your awareness that you will never be a man, your obsession with sex needs to go.

The biological purpose of sex is to procreate and have children. Only in modern times has it been feasible to seek sexual pleasure for pleasure's sake rather than it being a reward for fulfilling a biological need. The result is the moral decay of the West.

People need a purpose to life beyond base pleasures and self-interest, otherwise future generations will have no future. Y'all need Jesus.

I bet OP has no hobbies and that's why they're obsessed with trooning and gooning.

 

[Beelzebub's Lawyer]

Everybody knows some online slang. Like I sad before, I was not in lgbt circles.

"Trans masc" isn't just "some online slang", that's some deep cut that 99% of people on this website have no clue what it means, myself included, and we're way more aware than a regular person.
You went so far down the rabbit hole that these weird phrases that were made up 5 years ago seem like everyday language to you.

It's the equivalent of someone saying "I'm not really into the NBA" and then naming every player on every team over the last 10 years.

 

[William F. Clinton]

Man the mental patients that make these vent posts have some ego thinking I'm gonna read pages of un-indented paragraphs about their feelings.

 

[long waters]

There is literally no point of me existing in the sexual sphere. There is nothing I can afford to a woman that a regular man can't. No matter what I do, I'll just always lose. The thing with "given up" males is that you tell them to establish themselves in live, to get a job/hobby they would love, to fix their hygiene, but I ALREADY HAVE IT. I already have all of it. But no matter how I establish myself, no matter how hard I work, no matter how smooth I talk and who I meet, I will never be able to penetrate a woman and thus will never be satisfied with myself sexually.

Well shiet, you became a true & honest incel so congratulations.
We can now commiserate about foids and shie

Not only that, but my muscles are also will never be as strong as regular man's. And I'll never be as tall.

Nvm, you're a true & honest manlet too, can't associate myself with lil folk even if they are fellow incels

And I'm not some kind of incel, it's not women's fault I'm fucked up and they don't owe me sex. Closest thing to an incel I was when I was blackpilled regarding my height, but then I watched Null's video on incels and he sad it's dumb to care about this shit and explained why and it got easier. Still thankfull for this.

Sure thing lil dude.

No matter how much money I make and how I identify, I will never experience titjob - do you realise the horror of this?

I'd kick you in the nuts if you had any.

Watching porn also makes me sad (and not watching it is imposible for me, because how else am I supposed to release my sexual energy if there's no way for me to do it the way I want?).

Aw geez dood, you really are incel maxing.

If I ever get schizopilled and create Himeno tulpa [...]

Wait... a CSM fan?!... You're literally Togata.
I found this pic just now and it's literally (you)


Edit:

You see, that costs money

Wait I thought you said you had a job

Edit 2:
Kind of srs post - even if you are born a biological male, you can end up suffah-ing and not being happy with yourself. Oh I will never be tall enough, oh I will never be strong enough, oh I will never have a big enough dick, oh I will never be a young chad getting all the foid stacies, oh I will never be an intelligent billionaire autist dicking bpd girls and owning a social media platform or whatever. There are always a hundred things to cope and sneed about in life. But it's all pointless. The only thing to do is to come to terms with yourself and try to take joy in what you can take joy in instead of malding about what you can't do or missed out on or whatever.
That being said, I'm not really one to talk, I bitch and moan like a pussy-ass-bitch about muh-whatever issues too, I just don't do it in the thunderdome.
If you're srs about all of this and not trolling, I hope you do as Agni does and keep on LIVING until you find your peace, no matter how long that might take.

 

[⚞⛇⚟]

What do pooners normally do...

• They join polycules
• They date other troons (t4t)
• They goon on #vc
• They create grindr accounts and get intimate with chopped and desperate straight men
• They get into hookups with closeted women

Maybe you could get lucky and meet someone irl that is into you. I don't know how likely that is though.

 

[Professor G. Raff]

Serious question... why would you air this out on the KiwiFarms? You're going to be (correctly) told that you'll never be a man by almost everyone and you know that is going to be the result and are not open to listening to that (good) advice. Posting trans stuff on KiwiFarms seems to me it would either be a smug "own the chuds" delusion, or someone who is on the cusp of giving up their trans nonsense and feels they need a loud collective of people making fun of them to push them over the edge into de-transition. With no goal in mind other than whinging to a crowd that famously does not like your kind (though MtF is for sure the primary reason that is) I cannot see what you hope to gain. You've got it 100x easier than chudjak incel guy by being a woman, you could easily hook up with either gender and actually try to see what you like outside of being brainbroken by the internet and pretending to jack off your imaginary penis to Chainsaw Man. Odds are if you were like teleported 20 years in the past at the time of birth, to account for having all the same genetics and such, you'd just be a regular straight woman... the toaster-fucker meme has already been posted but despite your denial it's probably true for you. I'm rooting for you, little dood. Hopefully we'll see you in the de-transition thread one day instead of this kind of thing.

Also, if penetration is violence (a male youtuber psychopath told you afterall, so it must be trusted) then why do you want to penetrate your fellow women you psychopath?!

 

[Yaito-Chan]

This is OP:
Wyświetl załącznik 9048542
(can't find the original uncensored version)

Here you go, bud

 

[Gaystapo]

Wyświetl załącznik 9048858

Here you go, bud

Thanks. Couldn't find the original, even with two search engines, so I gave up. Saving since I'm sure I'll use it again on another thread.