Myth or just stupidly well hidden?

[Billy Bob Dick]

I can't control it, there has been times I have been on the verge of getting my ass kicked and I had to bite my tongue since the first thing people think when I say I can't control it is that I'm a nutjob.
Gore has helped have less swings, I feel less prompt to burst out laughing or crying in the middle of an argument, sometimes I just have to think on those videos, the images, graphic violent content and it paralyzes my brain for a bit, just enough for me to get a handle of it again.

You need to see a psychiatrist. Seriously. Book a fucking appointment and get on some meds, because there is clearly something very wrong with you.

 

[Zeftax]

If you are actually underage as some people indicated, maybe you just have unstable hormones from puberty. Don't fry your brain, leave the internet for a few months, ventilate your energy and mood swings in the gym or by taking meditative nature walks to actually think about your situation and sort it out, slowly. Being terminally online has got to have some really fucked up effects on the young mind.

get on some meds

You are an agent of satan

 

[Billy Bob Dick]

You are an agent of satan

if someone is actively seeking out criminal content on the dark web, they should be on Thorazine for their own safety

and everybody else's, frankly

 

[mindlessobserver]

I can't control it, there has been times I have been on the verge of getting my ass kicked and I had to bite my tongue since the first thing people think when I say I can't control it is that I'm a nutjob.
Gore has helped have less swings, I feel less prompt to burst out laughing or crying in the middle of an argument, sometimes I just have to think on those videos, the images, graphic violent content and it paralyzes my brain for a bit, just enough for me to get a handle of it again.

Damn bro. That legitimately sucks.

You are looking in the wrong place. Sacred places ironically are better. Especially since they arent so often visited. As is nature. Instead of staring at people dying and etching your soul with misery, go too a national forest and laugh at trees. Or deer, or some idiot butterflies flitting around.

It sounds trite but it is a far better coping mechanism. Animals and plants won't judge you and they are alive.

As for sacred places, I think if you tell a priest or pastor about your condition honestly they will be more then happy too accommodate your situation in a way that is far more constructive for your soul then nihilism.

 

[kikeymanwhore09]

As for sacred places, I think if you tell a priest or pastor about your condition honestly they will be more then happy too accommodate your situation in a way that is far more constructive for your soul then nihilism.

I have become distant and indifferent to religion because of the way my parents treated my conditions, and I wasn't seen by them any different than how strangers would see me, all they would do is 'pray', or guilt trip me into thinking I was attracting or had fiends inside my body.

As is nature. Instead of staring at people dying and etching your soul with misery, go too a national forest and laugh at trees. Or deer, or some idiot butterflies flitting around.

I used to go outside and look for creeks when I was 16, a place with no one around yet not quiet enough to hear myself 'snickering', I moved to an apartment now though and I'm too paranoid/exhausted to go out of my way in search of a forest or creek.

 

[mindlessobserver]

I have become distant and indifferent to religion because of the way my parents treated my conditions, and I wasn't seen by them any different than how strangers would see me, all they would do is 'pray', or guilt trip me into thinking I was attracting or had fiends inside my body.


I used to go outside and look for creeks when I was 16, a place with no one around yet not quiet enough to hear myself 'snickering', I moved to an apartment now though and I'm too paranoid/exhausted to go out of my way in search of a forest or creek.

Just...go? Nothing is stopping you. Go too where you are happy. A creek in the woods will provide you with way more then any shitty murder gore porn site on TOR.

 

[Paper Plates]

OP is trying to find content involving children, if it wasn't clear already.

 

[JelloJerk]

I can't control it, there has been times I have been on the verge of getting my ass kicked and I had to bite my tongue since the first thing people think when I say I can't control it is that I'm a nutjob.
Gore has helped have less swings, I feel less prompt to burst out laughing or crying in the middle of an argument, sometimes I just have to think on those videos, the images, graphic violent content and it paralyzes my brain for a bit, just enough for me to get a handle of it again.

Well it seems like the key is thinking about something else, rather than the gore. Again, it seems like you just enjoy gore and are trying to find some way to excuse consuming this content. Either admit you're a sicko or stop yourself from falling and better yourself. Gore works because it's shocking? You can find something else that's so impactful for you that it takes your mind of it.

if someone is actively seeking out criminal content on the dark web, they should be on Thorazine for their own safety

and everybody else's, frankly

You want an apathetic individual with anti-social behaviour to be on meds to make them even more apathetic and disconnected from the world? Doesn't sound like a good idea to me.
And antipsychotics make you FAT AS FUCK. If I was on antipsychotics, I would act more psychotic just to SPITE YOU MOTHERFUCKERS

 

[Maya Story]

Is this guy just retarded or a ween?

To be fair that's the fundamental question for half the newfag threads on this site.

 

[Billy Bob Dick]

You want an apathetic individual with anti-social behaviour to be on meds to make them even more apathetic and disconnected from the world? Doesn't sound like a good idea to me.

I would've suggested electroshock therapy because it's more entertaining, but that might've come across as callous

 

[mindlessobserver]

I have become distant and indifferent to religion because of the way my parents treated my conditions, and I wasn't seen by them any different than how strangers would see me, all they would do is 'pray', or guilt trip me into thinking I was attracting or had fiends inside my body.

Sorry too hear that, much like looking at Gore and Death isn't the way, that isn't the way either. Sounds like a very non-denominational protestant response. if I may be so bold, maybe try the Eastern Orthodox or the Catholics. There are good Protestant churches out there too, but without knowing your unique circumstances and region I can offer no opinion on that front. The Orthodox and the Romans are at least largely uniform in structure and both have training in dealing with members of the flock with issues like you describe. A facet of them being international organizations with civil structures and actual scholarly training for their priests.