Disphoria is-
*Dysphoria starts with jealousy. Jealousy of the freedom to express yourself. Why does she get to have long hair and beautiful braids?
*Dysphoria is being told "Man up".
*Dysphoria is wanting those cute Disney pajamas when you're young, but too scared to ask.
*Dysphoria is being confused. Why couldn't I have been born a woman? Then trying to convince yourself you're a boy.
*Dysphoria is looking in the mirror disassociated. Why is my body like this?
*Dysphoria is seeing a cute strappy pair of sandles thinking you would love those they're so cute.
*Dysphoria is hoping in your next life you'll be born a girl.
*Dysphoria is crying hysterically by this point. Wishing you had spoken up so much earlier.
*Dysphoria is wishing you went to prom. In a dress.
*Dysphoria is shaving facial hair in the morning even if it makes you late to school or work.
*Dysphoria is waking up in the morning not wanting to go to work because all you want to do is stay in your PJs and wear that comfortable bra all day although you look like a million dollars.
*Dysphoria is painfully epilating and the following day hand plucking all the hairs you didn't get the previous day.
*Dysphoria is being willing to go through laser hair removal for semi slow results. (Painful but quick and manageable)
*Dysphoria is wearing a sweater and sports bra at work and having a panic attack about the straps showing, moving your sweater back and forth until you feel likes its covered over and over until you finally get to the bathroom to see it wasnt even visible.
*Dysphoria is looking at your body in the mirror analyzing every aspect to compare to the sex you feel Every. Single. Time.
*Dysphoria is seeing your hips in a complimentary pair of pants only to find later underneath you don't have hips.
*Dysphoria is every time you're misgendered, including pre transition, and knowing "thank you sir" isn't what you want to hear from your biggest crush.
*Dysphoria is having high days and low days. Some where you feel great. Some when you just can't seem to leave your home.
*Dysphoria is a state that is hard to escape.
*Strength on the other hand is knowing this will be the biggest challenge we will ever face, yet taking it on day by day waiting to see the results of our pain. We're only growing stronger and I wish everyone here luck in being the happiest you can be ❤
*Strength also comes from those who accept us not knowing what we go through daily but still stand by us and listen. Thank you to those of you, truly. This is not a easy process and your simple gestures of throwing out proper pronouns or being thoughtful go a long way.
Egg, pre, transitioning, or post, don't forget that you are not alone and that you are loved. Keep your head high and stay strong ❤
If you feel the need please add on. Hopefully this post can be used to explain Dysphoria to someone.