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- Dołączono
- 11 Sie 2020
How readily you wankers buy into the after-the-fact justifications and sob stories of the same bitch that you SAW egging the guy on all this time. All it takes is a shitty little video. So sincere!
Of course, 90% of the fault here is on Digi, but come on, "you did your best".
I'm pretty sure they mentioned it on the PCP at some point years ago. Good luck finding which episode tho.
I've said it before, but Nate and Jesse are the only people in this whole group I hope succeed in life, be it online or in the real world.
Nate ain't a genius, and the work ethic I mentioned in older posts wasn't quite as solid as it seemed, but he's got what it takes to make it if he puts in the effort and consistency.
But he's mass-locked to this giant piece of shit and doesn't seem to be smart enough to figure out the escape vector.
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- Dołączono
- 12 Maj 2020
General thoughts after listening:Ok, I'm goint to just upload the first one and edit in all the rest of them to this post.
Tl;dw: Digi is kind of crazy right now, but most of it is just to hide from all of his responsibilities. Everything everyone ever speculated in this thread about him trooning out destroying his relationship and just about everything else was correct.
In this post he talks about having anxiety issues, Impostor Syndrome, and Dissociative personalities on top of all his dysphoria shit. It's crazy. I have timestamped a lot of it but it's not 100% accurate due to me having to cut the video up. They're mostly just rough locations of these topics/quotes. Also adding YouTube links in case the server is slow
Edit: Also, holy shit Digi confirms in his post on May's video that he has ordered HRT!!!
You'll see in these videos that May pushed Digi really hard to explore being trans. No one could have ever guessed, ever! So him telling May this might be to show her that he really can stick to something. He admits that it was a huge point of friction in their relationship up until the break in and breakup. Why he chose trooning out in favor of finishing anything else is a mystery.
Oct 7 2020 - 2 week review.mp3 Part 1.mp4
YouTube
Digi starts by apologizing to all the patrons for all of the miscommunications, unkept promises, and identity shifts. He acknowledges that he’s fucked up by taking on too many things (relationship and all of this other content shit)
First 10 or so minutes is just him talking about how he is disillusioned with being an anime analysis youtuber.
7:30 He complains that watching anime and thinking up “4 ideas a month” was too much for him. He also says that he got to a point where he could make an opinion even if he doesn’t like/care about a show.
10:00 Digi starts getting into the good stuff. He talks about how he isn’t happy anywhere.
10:35 great quote.
11:33 He says that the reason for all of the unfulfilled promises and weird plans that go nowhere is because he needs “it to be emotionally gratifying”
13:00 Talks about neurotyping video. Mentions that he has “two trains of thought” in his head. This will be funnier later
14:34 “I’ve always had trouble communicating with women because I want to escape into them”
Oct 7 2020 - 2 week review.mp3 Part 2.mp4
YouTube
0:00 Talks about gender dysphoria. He said that him “acting feminine” as an adolescent was seen as “annoying” by everyone around him. Mind you his examples of acting feminine are “using a feminine voice” and “wanting to be a girl.”
1:29 Digi claims to have Imposter Syndrome towards women because he is so “hypersexualized” towards them. Says having sex with women (May) was just a way for him to escape his dysphoria?
2:50 Digi confirms that his trooning out was one of the main reasons for him and May’s breakup.
3:45 Digi self-diagnoses himself with Dissociative Identities. He mentions “Depersonalization and Derealization” disorder specifically. Explains it until 20ish
5:10 Digi talks about the two trains of thought in his head. He calls them his two personalities, “B” and “Grey”
Talks about how his (((disorders))) are keeping him from working until like 11ish
10:30 talks about Riley (Dick show), Riley’s gf Mintsalad, and Bird (Dick show) over. They were going to do a road trip until the breakup. Admits that they have essentially had him on suicide watch for the last two weeks and have been mothering him this entire time.
12:30 talks about how he’s been more open with talking to random people on the internet. How this lead to some “person from the show” (idk what this is referring to) rubbed May the wrong way and led to Digi abandoning his Patreon Discord
Oct 7 2020 - 2 week review.mp3 Part 3.mp4
YouTube
0:00 talks about how trying to “befriend the internet” ran counter to May who had a bad experience with a fan? This is before the break in
1:20 Digi says that May did not approve of Digi’s retarded road trip idea when he could be buckling down at home to make some money and fulfill Patreon shit.
1:40 “my conception in my head was that within a month and a half I would have finished the rants, paid my taxes, and started making money again” Admits that he was retarded for thinking this
2:10 After all of this friction, Digi says the break in was really just the straw that broke the brony’s back
2:25 “I had basically built my life around the idea that I was going to be with this person forever, everything else revolves around that”
3:00 talks about how both of them were broken people trying to fill their voids with each other.
3:37 Digi speculates that May isn’t really trans. That she was just doing it to “help him through his feelings”
3:50 “I don’t know for how long she knew she was going to leave” “May was the person who understood that I was a woman more than anyone else, she was more convinced than I was”
4:25 He doesn’t want his cock anymore. Says he would be happier without it now
5:00- 7:00 talks about how having a family was on his mind with May, but he would prefer to just “talk with lots of people” and not worry about making money.
6:50 says that having May around pushed him to make more money. Doesn’t say “dependent” yet. He says he wasn’t who he really was with May? Or that he could only be himself around May and needs to learn how to be himself on his own? This is highschool level awareness.
10:05 “I felt like I needed my relationship to live, and without it I might die!”
11:40 thanks his fans for sticking with him through all of his insane shit. Really sounds like Cosmo in how they try to “own” their self-destructive shit.
14:40-3:00(next section) talks about how he’s “better as a counselor” lol. And how he “hates money” and hates how he has to make stuff because of money?????
Oct 7 2020 - 2 week review.mp3 Part 4.mp4
YouTube
1:00 “I only want to make money with things I think are fun”
3:50 compares himself to a ronin and a vagrant wanderer. Had to sneak in his weeb shit
5:30-8:20ish He really hopes that Khantent becomes his “job” because of how little work he needs to do and how he has Nate and his brother Victor to do all the heavy lifting for him.
8:20 DEPENDENT TALK. “I don’t think that I am going to pay for someone else every again. If anything, I want to be the one getting paid for”
8:35 ”I would love to just be a housewife” Isn’t it shocking that all of these low-effort, mtf trannies like Digibro and Tommy Tooter have this autistic obsession with being “just a housewife?” Beyond the obvious answer that they are lazy and fail as a man, doesn’t that also imply that they really disrespect their mothers and think that they have it easy? Makes ya think
And with that the deed is done. I hope to get some other spicy exclusive content for the farms soon, but I'm not going to Digi's house and I'm not going to try to abduct a goblin, don't worry.
Digi talks about how they only want to do things that are emotionally gratifying. When it comes down to doing work that they don't want to do, they don't do it. They're essentially complaining about having to work a job LEL. Welcome to the real world most of us work shitty ass boring jobs. The anime analysis became a job that wasn't fun like it was before and so they don't want to do it. What a fucking child. Digi talks about how they receive the most satisfaction from collaborating with others. Little does this idiot realize that working with others on creative projects sucks ass since you then have to rely on another person.
Digi then goes on a long ass shitty diatribe about having split personalities in their head. Essentially Digi is trying to explain a really shitty version of Bad Faith. Wow isn't it cool when a 30 year old figures out philosophy 101! I was sort of skeptical about the weed doing much besides making Digi lazy but they've actually fried their brain/done some form of mental damage. Usually when someone gets really fucking high they need something to ground them back to reality "Okay i got high all weekend, now i have to go into the office or school etc". Digi just sat there fried in their house until they ran out of money and couldn't take care of themselves. After the breakup Digi had to have others take care of them for 2 weeks.
Digi mentions how they can afford to live cheap now that they aren't bankrolling Amanda. Clearly this had to be some point of contention or resentment in Digi's head. Digi also mentions how they want to do as little work as possible for Khantent. Congratulations becoming once again dependent on other people to wipe your own ass. Surely relying solely on Nate and Victor to do the majority of the work won't bite you in the ass. Digi is now living with Riley and crew from the Dick Show. Digi feels like they're a good support system. These people will eventually outgrow you Digi since they're all in their early 20s and you're 30! Also whatever road trip they were planning earlier in the year is no longer a thing.
There was a little more context about Digi/Amanda relationship but it's mostly shit that we already know. Well this marks the end of an era. Luckily we were able to catalog most of the downfall.
Digi then goes on a long ass shitty diatribe about having split personalities in their head. Essentially Digi is trying to explain a really shitty version of Bad Faith. Wow isn't it cool when a 30 year old figures out philosophy 101! I was sort of skeptical about the weed doing much besides making Digi lazy but they've actually fried their brain/done some form of mental damage. Usually when someone gets really fucking high they need something to ground them back to reality "Okay i got high all weekend, now i have to go into the office or school etc". Digi just sat there fried in their house until they ran out of money and couldn't take care of themselves. After the breakup Digi had to have others take care of them for 2 weeks.
Digi mentions how they can afford to live cheap now that they aren't bankrolling Amanda. Clearly this had to be some point of contention or resentment in Digi's head. Digi also mentions how they want to do as little work as possible for Khantent. Congratulations becoming once again dependent on other people to wipe your own ass. Surely relying solely on Nate and Victor to do the majority of the work won't bite you in the ass. Digi is now living with Riley and crew from the Dick Show. Digi feels like they're a good support system. These people will eventually outgrow you Digi since they're all in their early 20s and you're 30! Also whatever road trip they were planning earlier in the year is no longer a thing.
There was a little more context about Digi/Amanda relationship but it's mostly shit that we already know. Well this marks the end of an era. Luckily we were able to catalog most of the downfall.
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- Dołączono
- 25 Maj 2020
I kind of want to feel bad for May but I don't know what to feel to be honest. She got so high on her and digi's farts, so high off of their combined ego, and I don't believe that was all Digi gassing (lol) her up. Talked so much shit about the farms and what people were saying here only to be proven that everything speculated pretty much came true.
- Dołączono
- 11 Sty 2020
Smellybelly1942
kiwifarms.net
- Dołączono
- 10 Paź 2020
So, flippin through this thread, I notice alot of weed hate. What's up with that? Weed is awesome.
- Dołączono
- 23 Maj 2020
in moderation, sure, but then we get people like Digi who never get any actual satisfaction from anything they do because they're too lazy to see it through, so they use weed as a surrogate. Slowly that drains any actual drive to succeed as they've supplanted the good feeling of successful work with a cheap-ish drug, so why do they need to keep improving themselves?
theres a reason a lot of the stoners you know are permanent minimum wage line cooks. not saying that using weed will make you end up like digibro, but abusing weed certainly will.
- Dołączono
- 11 Sty 2020
I'm sure that @Keeper of Locks & Keys can talk to this more than myself,
But potheads are at the best annoying, acting like their hallucinogenic is heaven-sent and making it a part of their personality makes them difficult people to be around as well as lazy.
like most things in life it's fun in moderation but doing a ton of it to cope with being a horrible person does no one least of all yourself any good.
edit weed is a depressant not a hallucinogenic
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- Dołączono
- 2 Gru 2019
It's kind of like booze. Some people just can't handle it and digi seems to be one because it looks like there's a substance abuse problem going on.
Smellybelly1942
kiwifarms.net
- Dołączono
- 10 Paź 2020
Ah, ok. So it's more like the way Digi uses it is rubbing people the wrong way. I don't fully keep up with him, but from what I've seen, he never pushed out an image that he smokes all day everyday. I may have missed somethin along the way.
Anyone know why he's so shaky, though? Like always jittering around his legs like he just drank 3 redbulls? I don't think that's weed related, but is is suspicious.
Anyone know why he's so shaky, though? Like always jittering around his legs like he just drank 3 redbulls? I don't think that's weed related, but is is suspicious.
- Dołączono
- 2 Gru 2019
My best guess is something like how some people have naturally shaky hands since as far as I know, he doesn't mess around with drugs that are all that hardcore. On the other hand maybe he does coke and I simply don't know.
- Dołączono
- 30 Maj 2020
I used it daily for two years to offset the stress after coming home from taking care of my late terminally ill mother (she offloaded all negativity unto me, which I forgive her for). But after her death I continued using weed to make myself feel better and I started noticing the ill effects. Multiple conflicting trains of thought, staying up too late, trouble getting out of bed, the works. Quitting daily use was a bitch, but it helps that my dealer doesn't live close by (but was on the route to the hospital) and I didn't want to spend money traveling there just to spend more money to buy something I knew wouldn't benefit me anymore.
So now (after quiting a long while due to COVID in March) I only use like 3 days out of the month. Light up a fat J, throw on some netflix or some weebshit or play some games. That's the way I should have used it all along, not 24/7. It also helps that only smoking a few days a month prevents building tolerance so each time I only need like a quarter of a joint to get a nice buzz. Don't be like Digi, drink, smoke and toke responsibly people. And don't do it while you are feeling down, that shit is a ripstarter for your emotions.
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Smellybelly1942
kiwifarms.net
- Dołączono
- 10 Paź 2020
Sucks you had to start usin it for stress. Like you said, it's best used when you're ready to chill for the rest of the day. And I can attest to not using it when emotional, I've only done that twice and I still remember those two times like they were yesterday. It really can intensify your feelings, and make you feel ridiculous after you come down.
- Dołączono
- 1 Sie 2020
I don't hate it, I smoked daily from a young age and stopped a decade ago, I justth don't think it's responsible to paint it as harmless. People talk awbout weed as though using ti is good for you. That getting stoned each day is akin to taking super vitamins. They've worked hard to blur the lines between casual recreational abuse and medical use. Which I think is dumb. Cannabis is no doubt good for certain things. If you're having chemo, it will help your appetite.
However if you're already badly socially adjusted and struggle with anxiety it is not the answer. Nor are benzos. There are no shortcuts in life, not to happiness, not out of sickness, not to creating better art. It upsets me to see weed made to look cool to socially vulnerable kids, if you don't have many friends, you'll likely easily find yourself "friends" when you start smoking, but see how long they stick around when you don't any longer or how often they visit to hang out if there's no smoking involved,
It's a crutch, like alcohol. Nothing wrong with getting high or drunk now and then but for some reason people who make their identities all about weed aren't seen through the same lens as someone who woduld do the same for alcohol.
"I wake up and smoke a fat blunt in bed" is arguably cool to some people while "I wake up a drink a bottle of vodka in bed" is cool to just about no one and will be seen exactly how it should be by anyone: sad and self destructive. I argue it's not terribly different. You won't have the physical issues from drinking you would from cannabis but smoke weed all day in your formative yeas and see where you wind up.
If you must do it wait til your life is on track and stable first, like you've got a solid job and house. If at that point you de ode you wanna few joints on the weekend,. Go for it
Tl;Dr - imo it's easy to slip into excessive use of it and then stagnate, in your social life, job etc.
Regarding drugs, I been there done that, all sides. Use, sale, cultivation, manufacture etc. It's a path to misery, if you're not unhappy, you might not be as far along the path. You may be lucky and never get that far however plenty of people will.
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Interesting. I'd been seeing all this shit in Twitter for a while and wasn't sure what umbrella it fit under, I saw them commenting on dear leader Null's Twitter too
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believe all women
kiwifarms.net
- Dołączono
- 12 Wrz 2020
These suddenly-trans internet guys really, really love their lesbian porn. Lachlan Still/ThePedanticRomantic, who is a kind of small-time Digibro wannabe, and also trans, is the exact same case, and regularly reposts lesbian porn on his main Twitter. I think even the average coomer would be embarrassed by that.
In a few decades, I think we're going to be shocked at how many social pathologies turn out to be closely related to a long-term porn addiction that started during childhood or adolescence.
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- 7 Lip 2020
I've wake and baked many times in the past. When I was living in the UK, I also occasionally woke up to drink a bottle of Buckfast and blast off (but only like once or twice a month). Waking up with a joint or a bowl is a great experience, but doing it every day will kill your brain (and your wallet). Waking up with a bottle is an overall much less fun experience (especially if you need to crash but the Bucky keeps you up like you've drank 4 cups of coffee).
Drugs are just one of those things you have to take responsibility for and grow out of. It's as Paul said: "When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things." You have to grow up and put away those things, because nobody else will do it for you.
Digi doesn't get that—maybe he refuses to understand it? It's not like there aren't people telling him to stop. And I know it's tough, since I've gone cold turkey on weed after months, years maybe, of smoking it regularly. It fucks with your sleep, your appetite, your weight, your mood, etc. You find that you have a lot more time that you used to fill with smoking. But it's 100% worth it, if only to get that amazing virginal high again when you can responsibly pick it up.
Smellybelly1942
kiwifarms.net
- Dołączono
- 10 Paź 2020
This is the last thing I'll ever post most likely, but whatev, I just don't like seein a good relationship end up like this. I don't know if it'll help ya'll but it helped me 10+ years ago, and I'll never forget how it changed my life for the better. Hope digi reads and acts on it, but I know this isn't how the world/internet works. Heck, I don't even know the people I'm talkin to. It really is parasocial, but wtf. Who cares? Idc.
If you love May, chase her. Don't let her go. Keep an open conversation going until you come to terms with what's going on with ya'll. Don't let miscommunication between ya'll ruin what could've been an amazing life long relationship. I know you're both going through things, and ideas you didn't have before we got here. The best advice I ever got from my one and only life long partner, chase her. Don't give up until you're forced to. Hopefully you love her enough to do that.
If you love May, chase her. Don't let her go. Keep an open conversation going until you come to terms with what's going on with ya'll. Don't let miscommunication between ya'll ruin what could've been an amazing life long relationship. I know you're both going through things, and ideas you didn't have before we got here. The best advice I ever got from my one and only life long partner, chase her. Don't give up until you're forced to. Hopefully you love her enough to do that.
Smellybelly1942
kiwifarms.net
- Dołączono
- 10 Paź 2020
a lyric video that I think fits...just sayin...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Efn1vO3fk_o&ab_channel=ValenciaCFSEMPRE Especially that 2nd verse, damn. Sounds like a digibro movie soundtrack. And here's another...just take this for what it is...I'm kinda bored and coming across these things...Another digibro saga soundtrack candidate: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4OLQB7ON9w. And a rap influenced one...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKAv7eOK2dg&ab_channel=DenzelCurryVEVO...enjoy...
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Pierrot Lunaire
kiwifarms.net
- Dołączono
- 24 Wrz 2020
That's why your life is on a downward spiral you dipshit, stop acting like that is valid advice.
- Dołączono
- 23 Lip 2020
This is one of the replies to Digi's tweet and it annoys me so much. Digi has zero real life job experience other than working at Target once for a few weeks and acts like he's some sort of life coach that's got everything figured out. Not that his pseudo-intellectual guru shit is anything new. But you'd think, after all that's transpired, he'd finally come to conclusion that he's pretty fucking bad at life.