Amber the Hedgehog
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- 23 Sie 2018
When I was in my teens I was fairly big yaoi fangirl. Not obsessed or anything like that but pretty much all ships I liked were gay and most romance stories I read whatever they were manga, fanfics or webcomics were about pretty gay dudes. At time I actually found most heterosexual and lesbian romances really boring. I consummated lot of yaoi media and was semi actively involved with various fandoms, usually mostly at the boy love side so talked about shipping, who would be on top and so on.
During that period of my life I did kinda want to be a gay guy. It just seemed so nice, romantic and quite importantly sexy. Fortunately I wasn’t an idiot and even back then it was pretty oblivious to me what I really wanted. I had desire to be involved in steamy situations but I was way too immature and socially awkward to accomplish that. Yaoi was for me a safe and fun outlet for certain urges that are normal part of growing up. Being a cute yaoi gay guy was just a fun idea that I sometimes considered a bit but I knew that real gays were just normal guys into other guys so nothing special. As I matured that wish seemed everymore silly and found plenty of options get my needs met.
I think it’s pretty much same for these FtMs. They found yaoi as a fun outlet for sexual urges when they were not ready for actual sex and relationships, but they didn’t get the memo that yaoi isn’t real. It’s just women creating some sexy fun for other women. Real life isn’t like that and dating in general can be quite complicated and uncomfortable. There are bad men out there, rejection sucks, people can be sexually imcompatible and even really good real relationships are a lot less romantic than fictional ones. Instead of facing that, they decided to follow a sexy fantasy. Stupid idea and immature as all hell, but some people are like that. They are so motivated by high or possibility of high, that they do even highly idiotic and harmful things and are hard to convince not to. Especially if there are also mental health issues or history of criminal behavior present.
During that period of my life I did kinda want to be a gay guy. It just seemed so nice, romantic and quite importantly sexy. Fortunately I wasn’t an idiot and even back then it was pretty oblivious to me what I really wanted. I had desire to be involved in steamy situations but I was way too immature and socially awkward to accomplish that. Yaoi was for me a safe and fun outlet for certain urges that are normal part of growing up. Being a cute yaoi gay guy was just a fun idea that I sometimes considered a bit but I knew that real gays were just normal guys into other guys so nothing special. As I matured that wish seemed everymore silly and found plenty of options get my needs met.
I think it’s pretty much same for these FtMs. They found yaoi as a fun outlet for sexual urges when they were not ready for actual sex and relationships, but they didn’t get the memo that yaoi isn’t real. It’s just women creating some sexy fun for other women. Real life isn’t like that and dating in general can be quite complicated and uncomfortable. There are bad men out there, rejection sucks, people can be sexually imcompatible and even really good real relationships are a lot less romantic than fictional ones. Instead of facing that, they decided to follow a sexy fantasy. Stupid idea and immature as all hell, but some people are like that. They are so motivated by high or possibility of high, that they do even highly idiotic and harmful things and are hard to convince not to. Especially if there are also mental health issues or history of criminal behavior present.