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🦊 FurryJerry Peet / Lily Orchard / Lily Peet / Valkyrstudios / Bhaalspawn / Tara Callie / "Mod Ebara" / CD-Call - Sociopath writer of pedophile fanfiction and cartoon reviews, faked getting raped to force a divorce, then mobbed and gaslit their ex off Tumblr, satanist neoliberal of the MovieSlob variety, also wants to fuck dogs and/or pokemon
Trouble in paradise. Lily blocked her ride or die Texan Nick aka GiygasBanidcoot do what you want with that info Giygas. That as well as Patricia Taxxon
Housekeeping. This is just a fetish thing. The whole degradation kink written in big block letters on a billboard. The “Oh what have I done to myself” sort. I refuse to give this any sort of attention other than to point out to the discords and the new heads what it is.
Your channel is dead, Lilz. You only have yourself to blame. The only one that can kill you is you.
Housekeeping. This is just a fetish thing. The whole degradation kink written in big block letters on a billboard. The “Oh what have I done to myself” sort. I refuse to give this any sort of attention other than to point out to the discords and the new heads what it is.
Your channel is dead, Lilz. You only have yourself to blame. The only one that can kill you is you.
We will not give it any attention, but the one that will get is gonna be 10 times worse because it is not gonna humor Peet's kink. It's gonna aim directly toward their ego, which is exactly what Crispy is gonna do, and make sure they can't get off from that.
Seriously, you degenerate son of a bitch. You seriously think this is gonna be your "going out in a blaze of glory" moment? You are more delusional than ever if that is the case.
Crispy is gonna have a great payday at your expense.
I'm not big in the modding community but I'm pretty sure there are a lot of mods out there that are way more controversial.
(The one that changes the Pride flags in Spider-Man 2. Such wild bigotry had to be removed from Nexus mods immediately.
Then it turned otu all it did was set your region to the Middle East. Womp womp.)
I could just dismiss it as clickbait, a lot of people say something is the most whatever and clearly it is not, but given Lily's limited scope and tendency to try to gaslight her audience into beleiving her opinions are fact, I don't doubt that she may sincerely believe that the Imoen mod was the most controversial mod EVER and she's SO BRAVE for talking about it without vomiting.
I have not bothered to watch any of her current videos (I cannot stand Lily's voice) but that quick clip of the new puppet is nauseating. It's not snapping between poses, it's flinging itself between them and then bouncing when it hits its pose. Lily's obvously just interpolating straight between poses without doing any pline adjustments to ease into and out of poses.
Even in the BG2 community, it's not the most controversial mod. I noticed when I was doing some research on it, a decent amount of the responses were some variation of "what, this exists?"
There's a pretty infamous mod where you romance your 15 year old companion, with said romance starting like the moment you recruit them. That's probably the most controversial, and was at least fairly known in the BG2 community. But as previously mentioned, that's a pretty niche community. There's just a lot of really bad BG2 mods out there. Usually for the same reasons that Lily's writing is bad, the writing was just a not so subtle excuse to work in certain kinks (usually rape) with Mary Sue self-inserts. Let's just say there's a reason that a lot of the better mods out there are the ones without any sort of romance component to them. Fun fact, one of the reasons the "new" Imoen romance mod (which I believe is the version Lily plays) is so much better than the original is because the original also featured rape as part of the torture Lily's favorite comfort character endures.
I'd argue any sort of whitewashing/pro or anti LGBT mod generated far more controversy. Or even the Siege of Dragonspear game that released as part of the remasters, which was probably the closest the original BG games went to being mainstream, where there was a lot of discourse regarding a rando NPC being trans. Lily probably didn't play that one because I'm pretty sure Imoen isn't a party member in it because she's studying magic or some such.
Normally, CD-Call is not accustom to removing the reblog feature from her posts, but she's willing to make an exception towards a discussion about The Amazing Digital Circus.
Anonymous asked:
I've seen a lot of people complain about the fact that Gooseworx kept Jax' trans identity very vague in the show itself and only confirmed it on twitter after the fact. I feel like this criticism was more justified back in the 2010s when a certain shitty author would "confirm" her characters as gay without there being any implications of that in the original work.
Is this actually something worth criticising when it's a trans woman representing herself and her own experiences?
cd-call-official-blog answered:
It's funny how other creators can just reveal shit on Twitter and in interviews or livestreams but the moment a trans woman does it everyone's got a bug up their ass.
doomsayersrequiem
It's not even a writer revealing something on twitter thing
In like the 3rd episode, Jax says "I'm just a little chicken fetus in an egg that needs to 8e cracked open.", and in the 6th, a character has her wear a maid dress and she keeps it on for way longer than she has to "ironically"
zitongzi
People who can squeeze subtext out of a rock when it comes to giving reasons why two men are gay suddenly need it explicitly spelled out in the show and can't understand subtext when it comes to a character veing a trans woman
awawawawa-type-girl
I got the fucking subtext just fine I just hate the fucking undeniable fact that no matter WHO does the storytelling it always has to be fucking hints and hushed whispers and almost-confessions and "oh-anyone-can-tell" (every single person who isn't transfem doesn't notice) like. Can we say the words? Can we say the fucking words? A quick, straightforward, "I wish I were a woman"? Can we? Is it allowed? Or am I not allowed to want that because *checks notes* fujoshis exist?
cd-call-official-blog
This is a reasonable complaint to have when it's a cis person writing it, not when it's another trans person writing it with a very specific kind of character in mind. Especially not when you're being extremely selective about when you're going to complain about it.
Sit the fuck down.
I never watched The Amazing Digital Circus, but I do remember CD-Call's constant bitching about gay representationbeing explicit... so what's the problem with someone wanting more explicit trans-representation and using straightforward language instead of subtext?
Anyone remember her bare minimum standards?
I can't imagine why CD-Call would be against straightforward language, but apparently she is now.
I never watched The Amazing Digital Circus, but I do remember CD-Call's constant bitching about gay representationbeing explicit... so what's the problem with someone wanting more explicit trans-representation and using straightforward language instead of subtext?
Anyone remember her bare minimum standards?
I can't imagine why CD-Call would be against straightforward language, but apparently she is now.
Short version: They forgot, and they are being a contractarian because they got a itch to stir shit up with something bigger than them. A rare mood for this cowardly cunt.
Long version: They absolutely fucking forgot because they hate the conversation has shifted away from their lack of understanding on the show, and make belief that they still give a shit about LGBT rep, they don't and never will.
But they need to have some sort of authority on it even if it is clear they are poking a hornet's nest they aren't prepared to deal with.
Even less when they want to go against what the fandom thinks because this asshole can't stop being a miserable cunt for one minute on shit they have no say on, but desperately want to be seen as such.
You gotta keep in mind that the LGBT community has outcasted Peet from it too, so they are letting that resentment work into their flawed outlooks.
At the end of the day, they just want to win even if they are being a complete clown.
I mean, if we're talking about controversial RPG mods, we need to mention the disaster of Fallout The Frontier. It's got everything you need from questionable fanfiction, lore breaking bullshit, stories that range from hilariously off the mark to pretentious, tone deaf garbage, edgy try hards, fetishes, grooming, and behind-the-scene drama/controversy that makes you nod along and go "Ah shit, this mod makes perfect sense now."
Fun fact, one of the reasons the "new" Imoen romance mod (which I believe is the version Lily plays) is so much better than the original is because the original also featured rape as part of the torture Lily's favorite comfort character endures.
I mean, if we're talking about controversial RPG mods, we need to mention the disaster of Fallout The Frontier. It's got everything you need from questionable fanfiction, lore breaking bullshit, stories that range from hilariously off the mark to pretentious, tone deaf garbage, edgy try hards, fetishes, grooming, and behind-the-scene drama/controversy that makes you nod along and go "Ah shit, this mod makes perfect sense now."
I think there's been 3 total versions of it. I'm only vaguely familiar with the first, as it released during the tail end of my time in the mod community and it's probably the version I've seen reviewed the most. That one is considered the worst. I don't really know about the second version, IIRC, it's still pretty bad and mostly added onto the ToB section, and the third is considered the "best" of the three. I've only ever seen Lily share mod quotes from the ToB parts of the game. I'm curious, but not expecting him to really cover like, the history of the mod. Or much in the way of specifics because this is Lily, I figure it'll just be lots of variations of "this is good" and "these other things that may or may not be related are bad" with hints of Lily's headcanon sprinkled in and maybe some cutesy quotes to show how they are totally in love.
I don't think I'll ever be able to bring myself to play the mod myself to actually see the dialogue in question. I've heard the third version isn't horribly written, it's just the subject matter that's naturally uncomfortable. But I also feel like if I download it, I'll rightly be put on some sort of watchlist. I'm prepared to sperg out about it when the video actually drops, but I have some strong feelings about Lily declaring Imoen a comfort character, because...she really isn't, if you actually like, play the game and read the dialogue, which I don't think Lily really does. I've mentioned before, but a lot of mod writers tend to write Imoen as overly playful, immature, cutesy, sometimes borderline manic pixie dream girl, which *maybe* fits her BG1 persona because she's arguably a blank enough slate where the cheery VA implies that sort of personality, but once she actually gets like...written lines and stuff, it really doesn't line up with the character.
I never watched The Amazing Digital Circus, but I do remember CD-Call's constant bitching about gay representationbeing explicit... so what's the problem with someone wanting more explicit trans-representation and using straightforward language instead of subtext?
Lily sent herself the original Anon. Let's just be clear about that.
Lily has said time and time and time again that she will never rwatch TDAC or take questions about it and suddenly there's a controversy about one of the main characters being trans in a work by a trans woman and now all of a sudden Lily has to defend Gooseworx' honor. By lying, of course. People are sick of characters being revealed to be gay off-screen, it doesn't matter who does it, TDAC just happened to reach a much larger and queerer audience than more mainstream work so of course people bitching about it is probably going to be louder.
Especially when people were actively theorizing that Jax was trans and Goose flat-out said previously 'he isn't trans', which I guess was trying to protect the big reveal but comes across as either lying to the audience about their theories or retconning a decision after the fact for bonus points. I'm inclined to believe it's the former, since Gooseworx also said Jax is a 'dark mirror' of herself, but one way or the other she was choosing to lie to the audience and I'm not really a fan of that decision. Not to say it reflects on Goose because it's kind of clear that she likes trolling the audience and did not know how to handle the amount of attention TADC brought directly upon her, but it's not a great decision. You don't need to deny or confirm if you aren't ready, just don't acknowledge or pivot the question.
I'll also complain because, while I totally understand this is what Goose was working up to in the show, she actually dropped the ball on execution. When Jax gives his backstory he talks about how his mother would routinely berate him for being too much and not enough like his father, and his father was always disappointed in him. This all but confirm that Jax is male in the real world. He isn't clear about the 'deeply personal' secret he revealed to his mother but the fact that his character sendoff is a needle-drop of "Isn't She Lovely" (as well as the other hints throughout) implies he's a trans-woman.
....except you get to the ending and we see Real World Jax, whose name is Leroy, who is still going by Leroy, who is still presenting as male. So did he go back in the closet after running away from home, or did he have a few weeks to think about and realize wiat, I'm not trans, I'm just gay, and that's why his real-world self is stable and happy?
The character lesson kind of accidentally turns into 'trans people turn into figurative and literal monsters who hurt everybody around them because they're projecting their own self-loathing', which is probably not what Gooseworx intended.
I've mentioned before, but a lot of mod writers tend to write Imoen as overly playful, immature, cutesy, sometimes borderline manic pixie dream girl, which *maybe* fits her BG1 persona because she's arguably a blank enough slate where the cheery VA implies that sort of personality, but once she actually gets like...written lines and stuff, it really doesn't line up with the character.
Aerie: I have a question for you, Imoen... you have the taint of Bhaal within you? Does this mean that you will turn into the Slayer as well? Imoen: I certainly hope not. I... I've been thinking more and more lately about that myself, though. Aerie: It must be an awful feeling. I can't imagine how <CHARNAME> deals with it. Imoen: Yeah... <HE/SHE>'s been living with it longer too. Sometimes, when it's quiet... I can hear the taint in my heart whispering to me. It says awful things, and I almost want to scream to shut them out. Aerie: *gasp* You... you haven't done anything that it's said, have you? Imoen: Well... other than that time I got up in the middle of the night to snatch a bag full of cinnamon cookies, heck no. Aerie: Oh, goo— ...what? Cinnamon cookies? Imoen: Ha ha! Oh, come on, Aerie! Lighten up, will ya? I'll tell ya what... if I have any desires to murder you in the middle of the night, you'll be the first to know, okay?
From Throne of Bhaal. Comprehensive list of her quotes available on the wiki page.
Given that Lily only talks about Imoen and Aerie (I kno wof no other party members in this game thanks to her) it's not inconceivable that she's only seen dialogue like this in the base game, and it's likely where a lot of mod writers get the same idea. Some of the other conversations have a similar bent of her being cute and silly. But some others also don't, I kind of feel like the writing is a little uneven generally. Knowing how games like this are usually handled I'm guessing there were a couple of writers handling the dialogue and they had different interpretations of what the character bible said about her.
Whatever the case, I can see where the initial idea might come from, and if you loop that in to liking a character's design then it's easy to make a comfort character out of a few choice lines of dialogue and an otherwise blank slate. What I would wager happened is that Lily played the original BG2, decided she liked Imoen for many reasons (not the least of which being her... unusual bond with the Ward) and then looked for a romance mod to satisfy her tastes.
"I wanted to experience more of this character I love, so I downloaded a mod where you can pursue your sister romantically. I just read it for the articles dialogue."
Jax is apparently supposed to be a "boymoder" and goes by Lee IRL (once again Confirmed on Twitter), proving the poster's point that people are so hush hush about it to the point any "subtext" falls flat on its face unless you're of the group in question (I'd argue even further - if you're not exactly the kind of person Jax/Goose... Lily is).
You know, the one Lily tells to shut the fuck up.
Jax is apparently supposed to be a "boymoder" and goes by Lee IRL (once again Confirmed on Twitter), proving the poster's point that people are so hush hush about it to the point any "subtext" falls flat on its face unless you're of the group in question (I'd argue even further - if you're not exactly the kind of person Jax/Goose is).
You know, the one Lily tells to shut the fuck up.
Further confirming Peet is way out of their depth here and only joined because they wanted to stir shit up to feel like they are the authority regarding of the matter. Little bitch, go back wanking on your fantasies of fucking your sister.
I mean, if we're talking about controversial RPG mods, we need to mention the disaster of Fallout The Frontier. It's got everything you need from questionable fanfiction, lore breaking bullshit, stories that range from hilariously off the mark to pretentious, tone deaf garbage, edgy try hards, fetishes, grooming, and behind-the-scene drama/controversy that makes you nod along and go "Ah shit, this mod makes perfect sense now."
What, you didn't think the logical next step in a Fallout Mod was quoting Metal Gear Solid memes, flying Vertibirds into space to rip off Wolfenstein, while all the writing was the writers' not at all disguised fetish?
Or the socially progressive Legion that was seeking out the fucking Lance of Longinus in Portland and getting in a threeway war between themselves, the NCR's most insane general and a Mormon faction of the BoS.
Personally, my favorite part was that the Legion infiltrator in the NCR leadership literally had a Latin name, and looked like the most suspicious fucker possible,
Seven years working on the mod, gone and reduced to ash within, like, a week,
Or the socially progressive Legion that was seeking out the fucking Lance of Longinus in Portland and getting in a threeway war between themselves, the NCR's most insane general and a Mormon faction of the BoS.
I loved the part where the progressive Legion Legate trying to sanitize the Legion is only like this in the Legion playthrough, otherwise, in the NCR quest he keeps one of your companions as a sex slave and brutally tortures and rapes her until she tries to end her life after you rescue her. This is either miscommunication between the writing teams, or a secretly based message about progressive LARPers.
Or when they have the third or fourth nightmare hallucination level where the ghost of Benny tries to guilt trip you about being a bad guy while your character is forced to sit there and cry about it.
