@Null @Cancer ♥ previously stated this was his sock on Onion Farms!
fyi i know im throwing stones from a glass house but your not mentally stable if you let these people get space in your daily mind. you should NEVER think of them because they will all fade away. even if they doxxed you its just best not to look back. but you probably know that and have no one else to talk to anyways, idk your situation though, again all i can do is apply what ive been through to you in some attempt to try understand you or give you advice here

you unlike me though (doubtfully) have a fully grown mind though assuming ur also an adult so maybe just take what i say with some consideration here, ur being used and you probably know it, but eventually they will get bored of you after youve lost everything in an attempt to jester for them and then itll TRULY be over. I had a friend called kili, I warned him the same thing, not to keep doing that. but he seriously thought he was untouchable, i had that feeling once too. my words will most likely go in through one ear and out the other. But again think of kili, he went from making ironic tiktok posts, to making people kill their dogs and writing his name next to the bodies. Now Im not saying your going to kill dogs, but your going to keep on ramping up your bullshit to furtherly engage that negative attention. This is sort of also how psycopathy works (i know these examples dont glamorize you or me) you kill and feel a peak, then it slows down and you start to hate yourself, then you kill again. after killing over and over that feeling becomes less sensational, so you kill even more frequently. Eventually you get caught. Kili got caught with his shit, he was doxxed and hes now facing mental hospital, its sad really, never had parents, in and out of foster homes, nobody ever cared for him which is why he only really ever understood praise from negative attention. we are just like kili, but we still have time.
Some 12am type of rants but for real listen to me, or dont and make fun of me, call me a faggot or another slur. and let bygones be bygones. I cant decide, because its all up to you at the end of the day