📚 Megathread SRS and GRS surgeons and associated horrors - the medical community of experimental surgeons, the secret community of home butchers

[The Great Ducktator]

I think they were talking about the long-term health effects of removing your reproductive organs and sewing up the place where they were, not just not being able to have sex. Chances of her living to 50 or 60 and not experiencing problems with urination or pelvic floor dysfunction are close to zero.

I hadn't considered the logistics of female urination.

 

[Shakira Flabbergasted]

I hadn't considered the logistics of female urination.

It's also that the uterus has a lot of pelvic ligaments that attach to it, so removing it is a bit like removing a load-bearing wall in your house. Things can just sort of collapse, and then you have major problems like fistulas and prolapses to deal with. It might be worth the risk for someone with a severe illness like endometriosis or cancer, but for a healthy young woman it's basically signing yourself up for major issues without any real benefit.

 

[The Poopsmith]

It may not matter either way, as my insurance has now decided to deny coverage for this surgery, having deemed it "cosmetic."

They probably should have thought about that before they de-pathologized transsexualism.

 

[JeanRob1]

This thread is more disgusting to me than the Post People Dying one. I can't believe someone is still trying to be trans after seeing all that shit.

 

[Iron Jaguar]

This thread is more disgusting to me than the Post People Dying one. I can't believe someone is still trying to be trans after seeing all that shit.

The Ride Never Ends.

 

[JohnnyG]

After getting murked by Reddit moderation for being an obsessive schizoposter, mutilated MTF Comfortable-Foot5682 returns under a new name: BeneficialDig5444. They say that time heals all wounds, but baby, you know it hasn't healed this one!

New name is already banned. And holy hell, what a horror story. I'm pretty cynical, and a believer in YGWYFD, but I wouldn't wish this body horror on anyone.

@Magic Pickle I appreciate your tireless work capturing this stuff, which will hopefully deter others from going down this path. And maybe in between laughs, we should all say a small "There, but for the grace of God, go I" prayer.

 

[Lesbian Grandma]

It's also that the uterus has a lot of pelvic ligaments that attach to it, so removing it is a bit like removing a load-bearing wall in your house. Things can just sort of collapse, and then you have major problems like fistulas and prolapses to deal with.

I learned recently that women who have had a hysterectomy are at risk for their intestines prolapsing out of their vaginas and it made me completely reconsider ever getting one.

 

[Anasa Tristis]

I hadn't considered the logistics of female urination.

Many, many such cases.

One thing we all learn on here is that all bodily functions are connected, Grasshopper.

 

[Shakira Flabbergasted]

I learned recently that women who have had a hysterectomy are at risk for their intestines prolapsing out of their vaginas and it made me completely reconsider ever getting one.

Same. When I was a teenager, I didn't understand why women who were finished having kids/didn't want kids didn't get a hysterectomy so they could stop having a period. Then I learned about all the ways it can go wrong and changed my mind. Periods suck, but I'd rather get one every month for 40 years than run the risk of my intestines falling out of my crotch.

 

[Clyde Cash's Left Teste]

but I find women getting nullectomies to be especially unnerving with the commonality of FGM in many countries, so it always merits reposting in my mind

Why is this surgery legal?

 

[I call shenanigans]

I learned recently that women who have had a hysterectomy are at risk for their intestines prolapsing out of their vaginas and it made me completely reconsider ever getting one.

These days gynaecologists don’t hand them out like candy. They know the consequences and generally only offer them when there is really no other choice. It’s not like the 1970’s when they were offered to pretty much any female over 45. Prolapses are a pretty easy surgical fix, but unfortunately have a high recurrence rate (at about the 10 year mark), so gynaecologists will try to avoid doing them in younger women. It’s similar to knee and hip replacements. Orthopaedic surgeons like to delay them until the late 60’s plus to avoid the potential need for repeat replacements.

Pooners have a much easier time getting a hysterectomy than older women who are not trans do, likely because GRS Surgeons don’t have the same ethics as your standard Ob/Gyns.

 

[Julie Newmar]

These days gynaecologists don’t hand them out like candy. They know the consequences and generally only offer them when there is really no other choice. It’s not like the 1970’s when they were offered to pretty much any female over 45. Prolapses are a pretty easy surgical fix, but unfortunately have a high recurrence rate (at about the 10 year mark), so gynaecologists will try to avoid doing them in younger women. It’s similar to knee and hip replacements. Orthopaedic surgeons like to delay them until the late 60’s plus to avoid the potential need for repeat replacements.

Pooners have a much easier time getting a hysterectomy than older women who are not trans do, likely because GRS Surgeons don’t have the same ethics as your standard Ob/Gyns.

Plus, I mean… what are the odds they live through more than ten years after pooning out?

 

[Iron Jaguar]

Why is this surgery legal?

Because a lot of Americans mistake Anarchy for Freedom.

 

[batteredpancakes]

Anyone spoken about ElephantDick lately? She's going for an erectile implant soon

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I just had my consultation for implants last week, so I’ll provide what info I can. With phalloplasty, implants can refer to a few different things. Testicular, though based on your desire for an erection I’m going to assume it’s not those, and erectile devices, which include the malleable rod and the pump. I specifically consulted for the pump because I’m not interested in the rod. I want the ability to be completely soft and I like the idea of being able to go from soft to hard. The major risks are erosion (where the implant breaks through the skin) and infection. It is possible for it to become unanchored as well. These three major complications are uncommon, and my surgeon said it was a relatively safe surgery. He quoted me 5% risk for infection. With an infection, they have to remove the implant and after your body heals they can try again. Penetration is usually possible with the erectile devices. Vaginal is almost guaranteed, but anal can be more difficult. There are also external erectile devices, people talk about penis sleeves and the elator a lot.

The pump implant that most surgeons in the US use is the coloplast Titan. It’s the only one that is FDA approved. The model is designed for cis men (because of course it is lol) and has two cylinders that go in the penis itself. People post phallo usually only get one cylinder simply because of how much room they take up. We don’t have the same internal anatomy as natal penises, which is why they can’t become erect on their own in the first place. Two cylinders is possible to place, but my surgeon didn’t recommend it. He showed me a model of the implant and the two cylinders were quite girthy and extremely firm. One cylinder was still very firm, and I’ll definitely be going with the one because of the space. The coloplast titan also has a larger diameter than other models, so one cylinder works well.

People generally say it lasts about ten years. Though the data on trans people is very lacking. And sometimes there’s a mechanical problem where it stops working, which is another potential complication. But it can be replaced.

Now regarding performance. I’ve never had sex, and I’m not particularly interested in topping, but my dick right now is really soft and floppy. Which is fine until I want to do something besides pee with it. I would also like the ability to top if I wanted to. I’ve been holding onto a clone a willy kit and I am beyond excited to break that out after implants.

Looks like she's not managed to lose her virginity yet. And she's getting an implant just so she can make a mold of her frankendog.
I'm stunned how easily she forgets how traumatic her surgeries are; she's like a dog that never learns to stop eating bees.

I’ve never had sex, and I’m not particularly interested in topping, but my dick right now is really soft and floppy. Which is fine until I want to do something besides pee with it. I would also like the ability to top if I wanted to. I’ve been holding onto a clone a willy kit and I am beyond excited to break that out after implants.

She implying here about masturbating and a slight interest in fucking men. Kinda surprising she hasn't wandered over to Grindr yet like most TiFs.

In another comment she reveals she is getting a monsplasty due to her dog hanging far too low. Her second phallus must be quite weighty.

Obligatory reminder that there is absolutely zero correlation between height and dick size but definitely go for whatever feels right for you. I ended up with 5” and I do wish it was a little smaller but it doesn’t bother me enough to want to do anything about it. I’m hoping a monsplasty with my stage 3 will help- it wont change the length but it will raise it so it doesn’t hang so low.

Since i'm talking about her I'll take a look at her Instagram. She turned 24 recently and here's a bday pic I've picked out.

 

[Iron Jaguar]

These three major complications are uncommon

my surgeon said it was a relatively safe surgery

He quoted me 5% risk for infection.

These lunatics are a Cult Leader's dream. They will believe anything they're told if it validates/reinforces their delusions.

 

[toilet_rainbow]

Anyone want a nullo? u/psychedelic666 is quite proud of her Ken doll physique, granted to her by that maniac mad scientist Dr. Curtis Crane. She's showing it off in r/bodymods today:

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She's 28, identifies as a "zany lil bisexual autistic gremlin creature" and claims she fucks true and honest fags. Has never had an orgasm (shocker) and spent $38,000 on this.

She said in one comment that she didn't want to pursue phallo because the results are trash lol.

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Yeah, I'm not clicking those.

Spoiler: Is it still NSFW if there's nothing there?

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Interesting how "nothing" can be more disturbing than some of the flesh monsters posted in this thread.

Edit: my bad, @Magic Pickle did post her null bits recently and I even stickered that post. Well, enjoy a second helping with some backstory/lore on this fucking idiot I guess.

Am I hallucinating, or have we seen Errol before?

No, I did post this user a little bit ago, but I find women getting nullectomies to be especially unnerving with the commonality of FGM in many countries, so it always merits reposting in my mind.

She’s in the Hall of Shame for that reason. Her original posts are creepy enough. These updates with more angles made my skin crawl.

Why is this surgery legal?

This is the fun part: it actually isn’t. Female nullification falls under FGM, making it illegal on the federal level. She paid Crane out of pocket after insurance denied it because of that.

One of my personal non-crotch favorite surgeries to post about are tracheal shaves as they rank up there with vocal feminization surgery as among some of the most pointless fucking things you can ever try and pursue. Look

It’s impossible to rank which SRS surgeries are the most pointless since all of them are, but yeah, that one is definitely high up there. You don’t pass, and you now have more breathing problems. #winning

I learned recently that women who have had a hysterectomy are at risk for their intestines prolapsing out of their vaginas and it made me completely reconsider ever getting one.

Same. When I was a teenager, I didn't understand why women who were finished having kids/didn't want kids didn't get a hysterectomy so they could stop having a period. Then I learned about all the ways it can go wrong and changed my mind. Periods suck, but I'd rather get one every month for 40 years than run the risk of my intestines falling out of my crotch.

These days gynaecologists don’t hand them out like candy. They know the consequences and generally only offer them when there is really no other choice. It’s not like the 1970’s when they were offered to pretty much any female over 45. Prolapses are a pretty easy surgical fix, but unfortunately have a high recurrence rate (at about the 10 year mark), so gynaecologists will try to avoid doing them in younger women. It’s similar to knee and hip replacements. Orthopaedic surgeons like to delay them until the late 60’s plus to avoid the potential need for repeat replacements.

Pooners have a much easier time getting a hysterectomy than older women who are not trans do, likely because GRS Surgeons don’t have the same ethics as your standard Ob/Gyns.

One of the things that trannies can’t comprehend is that very often what you’ve got is better than you want. Yeah, no periods is great, but that grass is no longer a vibrant green the longer you see what else is on that particular lawn.

It’s a good rule of thumb to avoid surgery unless absolutely necessary. Realizing that already puts one higher in emotional intelligence than the average tranny.

I've come to pride myself on learning the various ins and outs of troon 'n' poon mutilation, but this method was a new one to me and, upon my research, alarms me a bit: the only posts that come up when you look for this method are two mysteriously deleted Reddit posts (neither of which belong to the poster I feature today); and in all cases, it is only Dr. O'Brien-Coon who offers this technique as he supposedly invented it. As such, I did my best to archive the most comprehensive post about it, which you can view here (and another one from LinkedIn by a Hilary Wilson was penned here). Anyway, please enjoy yet another grisly way to disfigure women in the hopes you can put rotdogs on them!
ThatIntersexGuy (Dr. Devin O'Brien-Coon; phi innervated periumbilical eversion (PIPE) phalloplasty)
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Impressive. It’s like he successfully manifested the door to hell on her stomach.

 

[Cun75p4rkl35]

Anyone want a nullo? u/psychedelic666 is quite proud of her Ken doll physique, granted to her by that maniac mad scientist Dr. Curtis Crane. She's showing it off in r/bodymods today:

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She's 28, identifies as a "zany lil bisexual autistic gremlin creature" and claims she fucks true and honest fags. Has never had an orgasm (shocker) and spent $38,000 on this.

She said in one comment that she didn't want to pursue phallo because the results are trash lol.

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Yeah, I'm not clicking those.

Spoiler: Is it still NSFW if there's nothing there?

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Interesting how "nothing" can be more disturbing than some of the flesh monsters posted in this thread.

Edit: my bad, @Magic Pickle did post her null bits recently and I even stickered that post. Well, enjoy a second helping with some backstory/lore on this fucking idiot I guess.

Nothing screams "I was molested at a young age and now I'm damaged beyond repair" like willingly carving out your clit and having your pussy removed and stitched closed. "NO ONE CAN RAPE ME NOW"

Since i'm talking about her I'll take a look at her Instagram. She turned 24 recently and here's a bday pic I've picked out.

She looks like a teenage boy with some kind of retardation and a dinosaur special interest, along with a mom that loved the bottle more than her (upper lip)

 

[gampboonerisms]

Since i'm talking about her I'll take a look at her Instagram. She turned 24 recently and here's a bday pic I've picked out.

She looks like a teenage boy with some kind of retardation and a dinosaur special interest, along with a mom that loved the bottle more than her (upper lip)

If she took off the horn rimmed glasses, she might pass better. But the poor, unfortunate girl has to come through one way or another and the sublte horn rim's are just screaming female.

 

[Magic Pickle]

Since i'm talking about her I'll take a look at her Instagram. She turned 24 recently and here's a bday pic I've picked out.

She looks patchy, dry and sickly. And at barely 25, widely considered an age where one is at the height of beauty (unless you've the tastes of Leonardo DiCaprio)? Things do not bode well for her.

Thread tax.
A few weeks ago, a surgeon decided to play comedian, telling jokes on the stage of this nearly 60-year-old man's body. But though the laughter stopped a long while back, OP is finding out the hard way that the show must always go on.
JOYR1234 (Dr. Michele Fascilli; vaginoplasty)
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Need a honest opinion ​

Had surgery 2 weeks ago and would like to get a honest opinion if they did a good job thanks

Spoiler: Do you prefer your laughter canned or organic?

Coming back to give us some signs of life is Winter_Hovercraft163, whose graft failure was quite galling even as far as graft failures go. Unfortunately, her current situation has not proven that a hideous hog can become a pretty pecker, but she's ready to frame it that way after smoking many, many rounds of copium!
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1 month update on failed skin graft (TW: Gore. Do not look at if wound separation makes you uncomfortable!)​

1st photo - day of surgery. Last photo - today.

Wound separation from a failed skin graft. Posting this to show how quickly things can heal even if the wound separation gets pretty bad. It’s been 4 weeks between photos.

Spoiler: You can see in her camera reel she chose the 'best' one for last.

Another recurring cast member of the SRS thread, Clean-Bird3449, hasn't been seen hide nor hair of since 2024 until now, as he shows off his second revision under the... er, "skillful" hands of Dr. Kocjancic of UC. Seeing as search results of levator ani plate incisions yields results for prolapse repair, let's see how well this one turned out - is his kitty finally pretty? Or are we all looking at yet another date with density in the near future?
Clean-Bird3449 (Dr. Ramineni and Dr. Kocjancic; vaginoplasty/vaginoplasty revision with incision of levator ani plate, monsplasty, labiaplasty and clitoroplasty)
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2nd revision Vaginolplasty, day 4 ​

Before I say anything, I am a polygendered individual and I know I have a large body, thanks for noticing it does not impact my health.

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So I had my 2nd revision (3rd bottom surgery) with Dr.Kocjancic at UC hospital in chicago on Jan 20th. (I decided to go with a different surgeon than my initial surgeon)

I am currently 4 days post op.

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In this procedure we did: vaginoplasty revision with incision of levator ani plate, monsplasty, labiaplasty and a minor clitoralplasty

With the levator ani plate incision, the goal was to release muscle tension that was causing difficulty with dilation and penile insertion (was doable but needed a lot of prep work)

The monsplasty/labiaplasty helped address asymmetry and excess bulking (unrelated to fat)

And a bit of clitoralplasty work was done to unfuse some hood tissue and to approve hood aesthetics.

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Theres still a good bit of swelling but im pleased with how its coming along so far. I believe once the swelling resolves the current stitchings scar line should be on the inside of the fold.

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"Its beautiful, im very pleased, you'll love it" - Dr.Kocjancic

I have a post op visit scheduled for the 6th and will periodically update in the weeks and months ahead.

My first surgery, was on Aug 22nd, 2023 and its been a really long road to get to this point while still maintaining my sense of self and dignity and im happy with this recent venture ao far

Spoiler: Honestly doesn't look much different, but maybe I've finally gone blind!

Usually I consider the sufferers of these procedures to be somewhat deserving of their fates due to their willful ignorance going into the operating theater, but for once, I'm on OP's side here because her doctor sounds like the King Duck of all quacks. At first I was surprised at such an honestly vampiric admittance of predatory behavior, but when I realized she was from Brazil, it made a bit more sense. Still, OP says she's seeking litigation, so get his ass, li'l dood!
tybertrand (Dr. Oswaldo Vallejo Perez; bilateral cosmetic mastectomy with fishmouth incisions)
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My surgeon was a psycho​

I made a post last year about my surgery. I had a terrible experience with my top surgery. I had my health insurance plan pay for my surgery, and I just found out they didn't accept another surgeon (with a history of great ftm top sugeries in a city nearby) bc he asked for a higher price and my surgeon didn't. But me and another patient found out he didn't take it all out (even tho we had very VERY small breasts) bc he wanted us to ask for another surgery so he would receive twice. I'm one month on T, taking it every two weeks, going 6/7 to the gym and look how BETTER i am. He didn't ask for a physiotherapist after the surgery, I had one through the SUS (Brazilian Public Health Insurance) and I feel much better. He was a psycho and yes I will sue him for cutting me open, taking a bit out, and sewing me the most cruel way so I would feel so much pain taking the stitches out.

If you had trouble, don't give up, keep going.

Spoiler: She recovered quite well in spite of him, actually.

The keloids that resulted from this chick's top surgery are pretty gnarly, but I was quite surprised to learn that this is actually a revised result - and that she's considering another possible revision. How many times are you going to get stabbed before you realize the chase for the dragon is one hell of a never-ending story?
HollowPanda92 (bilateral cosmetic mastectomy with double incision)
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Anyone been able to resize their nipple and areola after top surgery?​

I’ve had a revision over a year ago now and still not in love with my results. I know there’s probably nothing I can do about my scars, but I feel like if my nipples were smaller and more male presenting, that I would have an easier time adjusting. Has anyone had a resizing done, essentially a second time?

Spoiler: They're borderline three dimensional, for God's sake.

Now for a couple of text posts, as is my standard.
Back in October, 46XX_ was debating nullification for the desert of desire he now calls a "vagina." But it seems his psuedopussy overheard him and has started bleeding at random intervals - typically when he's been more active during the day - and it leaves both him and his provider positively puzzled. "just generally makes me feel [awfull] [abt] myself," he writes, as if he didn't seem to feel like absolute shit before hand.
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Randomly bleeding (6yrs post op)​

I haven't rly heard anyone else complain about this before, but im struggling so much with just catching random red spots in my underwear?? sometimes its definitely fresh blood, while other times its a bit more brown ish n mixed in w discharge. and whenever it happends, it seems to correlate w me having been more physically active that day.
Me and my dr assume its either irritation or micro cuts, but during the few exams I had nothing unusual was found.
does anyone know how i can fix this, bc it grosses me out alot and just generally makes me feel awfull abt myself
tysm

Finally, a tragic tranny tells the terrifying tale of being a patient of one Dr. Marci Bowers, the same butcher infamous for mutilating Jazz Jennings. Highlights for this story include passing out from internal bleeding, post-operative prolapse, OP being in so much pain he nearly ripped the bicep off of the bone of his partner and, as always, appearances from The SRS Sisters: necrosis, permanent nerve damage and granulation. Fun for the whole family!
Opening_Design_9079 (Dr. Marci Bowers; penile-inversion vaginoplasty (PIV))
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12 Months Post-PIV With Dr. Marci Bowers. I can't live like this. ​

I had penile inversion vaginoplasty with Dr. Marci Bowers in California in February 2025. Going to her is honestly the worst mistake I’ve ever made and I'm struggling to convince myself that I haven't completely ruined my life.

Day 0: The morning of my surgery (Tuesday) went more or less fine. Bowers stopped by and I asked her some questions that I got simple answers to before she left. I was very hungry after fasting and bowel prep, but induction was without incident and I don't remember anything after that point.

Night 0: The first night I found out the hard way that I am one of the weirdos that is totally morphine intolerant. Because roughly 25% of people are some degree of morphine insensitive (Riley et al. 2006), it is no longer preferentially used where I am from / have worked and if its use is planned during a procedure a pre-op challenge is generally conducted to avoid betting pain control on two coin flips not both being tails. I'd had no idea morphine was going to be used for pain control afterwards and no challenge was conducted, so once the intraoperative fentanyl and propofol worked their way out of my system I was left with no pain control whatsoever for 2-3 hours with occasional screaming during muscle spasms. Hospital staff were unwilling to give me anything other than more morphine, which may as well have just been saline. Eventually, after my spouse eventually managed to get through to Bowers on her personal cell phone number and with sufficient begging I was given a small amount of hydromorphone and my pain was brought back somewhat under control.

The remaining days in the hospital carried on with inadequate but not excruciating pain control.

Day 3: On the third day after bottom surgery (Friday) I was scheduled to be discharged from inpatient care and go back to the hotel where my wife was staying. My aftercare packet had made reference to a physical therapist that would assist me with walking before my discharge, but this never materialized. Regardless, I was able to walk with minimal difficulty and was picked up by my wife and driven back to our hotel room.

Night 3: Shortly after midnight I woke up in the emergency department at the hospital where my surgery had been done with no memory of where I was or how I'd gotten there. My wife had found me in bed wrapped in blankets, clammy to the touch, and intermittently responsive complaining that I couldn't see. I had been taken by ambulance to the emergency department and it was discovered that I was bleeding internally. Some CBC values are included below for the sake of nerds like me.

Lab Value​

RBC 2.4M/uL​

Hemoglobin 8.1g/dL​

Hematocrit 22%​

I was sent back to the hotel with my spouse again shortly after regaining consciousness.

Day 7: By the time my post-operative appointment came around, Dr. Bowers had left the country so I was being seen by her physician's assistant instead. I experienced a minor prolapse as the packing was removed, but was assured this would be fine as we were about to push it back in with the dilator. I was told that, during surgery, I had taken a SoulSource Orange #4 to 15cm of depth. When Bowers' PA inserted the blue #2 dilator I was in severe pain and reached to my spouse for support in an attempt to avoid screaming again, but grabbed so hard I almost ripped their bicep off of the bone and they had to seek medical attention for the avulsion. My pain was disregarded by Bowers' PA and this was followed by being told to do Green #3 by myself. I mostly dissociated and followed orders for the first ~10cm or so; Bowers' PA pushed it in the rest of the depth for me when I couldn't manage it. I was sent back to the hotel room with dilators 2-4 with instructions to begin dilating the next day.

Day 10: Dilating had remained just as excruciating as the first day and by this point my lower left labia majora had become necrotic and was sloughing off. At one point while I was curled up sobbing while trying to dilate, my spouse had called Bowers' office and asked for me to be seen so I had another followup with her PA today. I had not been examined internally during my original postop, but upon inspection this time it was remarked that I had significant wound dehiscence and large parts of my canal had no skin covering it at all, meaning I was sliding the dilator over muscle and fat. I was given a SoulSource purple #1 dilator to use instead of the blue #2 in hopes of putting less pressure on the exposed tissue. It helped mildly.

Day 13: Another followup with Bowers' PA. Dilation pain had not improved at all at this point. My lower left labia majora had continued sloughing off of me. These problems were unaddressed. It was late February at this point and my complications were worsening continuously. By this point I was in intense pain at all hours of the day. My closest point of reference for the pain was a gunshot wound I had experienced years prior.

12 Weeks: At this point I finally was able to establish care with an OB/GYN near me and got my first silver nitrate treatment for the granulation tissue that had been growing inside of my canal. I had lost ~5cm of depth by this point. I have been seeing this OB/GYN every 2 weeks since this appointment (with some exception) and to date have had 12 granulation tissue treatments (excision and silver nitrate) with her with minimal improvement. I was still dilating 3x per day as prescribed and consistently losing around 20-40mL of fresh blood every session (60-120mL per day) as estimated by myself using the MAR method, leaving me in a state of constant exhaustion and fatigue.

Bowers' remained more or less entirely dismissive of my pain and complications and still had not examined me. At this point I had begun reaching out to other surgeons' offices to beg for help, but was told uniformly that I wouldn't be seen before 1 year postop.

19 Weeks: After months of begging, I was finally given followup appointment and saw Dr. Bowers for the first time since leaving the hospital. She excised a roughly fist-sized volume of granulation tissue from my canal and treated it with silver nitrate. She was entirely dismissive of my concerns around losing a third of my depth and the constant GSW-esque pain I was in.

25 Weeks: After 2 more granulation tissue treatments with my OBGYN, it was obvious that more effort was needed and Bowers eventually conceded a second followup appointment. By this point I had lost another 2cm of depth despite constant dilation as prescribed as measured by my OBGYN using a uterine sound. Bowers excised and cauterized more granulation tissue and was still completely dismissive of all other issues.
35 Weeks: By this point, Bowers had decided I needed a revision to fix what was wrong. My canal width had contracted so much I could no longer fit the purple #1 dilator at all. I was still in severe pain that had forced me to withdraw from all athletic competitions I had intended to participate in that year. At this point, Bowers pressured me into also doing a cosmetic revision labiaplasty. I didn't trust her at the time, but I was desperate for any kind of relief, none of the other surgeons I had reached out to were willing to see me, I was in so much pain I was certain I wasn't going to survive 2025 without help, and was scared she wouldn't help me if I didn't let her because aesthetics are her obsession to the degree that all she ever really talked about during previous appointments was how good my result looked cosmetically.

I went to the surgery center and my spouse and I were both very insistent that there be no morphine involved. Thankfully, there was no morphine involved. Unfortunately, it turned out I had been right to not trust Bowers. Cosmetically, the result has been significantly worsened by her revision, but appearances are the least of my problems right now. While the granulation tissue was destroyed and my pain was temporarily massive reduced, it has since regrown and I now also have significant nerve damage and no longer have anything beyond deep pressure sensation in most parts of my vaginal canal.

50 Weeks (Time Of Writing): At this point, the scarring is so extensive I only have ~3cm of usable vaginal depth remaining before hitting a band of scar tissue that restricts any stretching. My OB/GYN can no longer use even the smallest speculum in her office without actively holding it in for the entire exam. I am still in debilitating pain every day and have had to drop out of all athletics. I can barely stand long enough to cook a basic meal and feed myself. Thankfully, my job is remote and I've been able to walk the ~20 feet from my bed to my desk most days and phone in something good enough to not get fired. The granulation tissue (the only complication that's actually been addressed in almost a year since my initial surgery) has returned and I am still dealing with bleeding and constant discharge.

Now that I'm almost a year out from my initial surgery, I have been reaching back out to other surgeons' offices in hopes that somebody can save me from this living hell. Bottom surgery has been the worst thing to ever happen to me. I feel betrayed, violated, deeply regretful, and totally hopeless that any of this will get better. My friends are burnt out from watching my mental and physical health decline over the past year as I've been forced out of my athletics and into a sedentary lifestyle by seemingly inescapable pain and my relationship with my spouse is severely strained. My life at this point consists almost entirely of sleeping, eating, and dissociating to escape the pain. I spend most days laying on my couch/beanbag/bed/floor and staring up at my ceiling as hours disappear in what feels like seconds. It feels like I already died and I'm just waiting for my body to get the memo. I don't know what to do anymore or how I'm going to survive this.

 

[The Great Ducktator]

On the third day after bottom surgery (Friday) I was scheduled to be discharged from inpatient care and go back to the hotel where my wife was staying

Spoiler: Slight powerlevel

I had my appendix unassigned. The minimum stay in the hospital for that minor surgery is three days. These people get their kidneys fisted through their upturned dickholes and are send home after three days too?

I am still in debilitating pain every day and have had to drop out of all athletics. I can barely stand long enough to cook a basic meal and feed myself. Thankfully, my job is remote and I've been able to walk the ~20 feet from my bed to my desk most days and phone in something good enough to not get fired. The granulation tissue (the only complication that's actually been addressed in almost a year since my initial surgery) has returned and I am still dealing with bleeding and constant discharge.

Sounds like the state of this troons body finally matches the state of his mind. Another success for the gender surgeons.