>My lowest priority in life is my public image
Funny from the way he's behaving it seems its his kids.
Putting aside the ever-darkening portrait of that house/home life for the moment bc

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I watched the first 10 or 15 minutes of his stream via Elissa, and then it seemed to be heading into repetition so I killed it, but I can say this, charitably: that was the clearest and most cogent I have ever heard him sound - ever. At times he didn't even have that nasally whine. I'm nice so I'll give him that, even though he was spewing the usual bs. His face looked healthier/clearer, too. So, good job neatening your space and trimming your face hair...but how are the kids? Are they thriving? Do you know?
He should watch his first 10 or so minutes of that clip then watch random clips of his shows from a month, 2 months, 3 months, 6 months, a year, 2 years, and 3 years ago. And then he should reflect on it, both in the low-priority sense of his overall quality in his chosen job, but also as both a literal and a metaphorical depiction of his entire life. And then get humble (ha ha ha).
And if he has an ounce of reality available, he'll understand that the degradation of his life, person, and performance as a human is not the delusion of Scandinavian and New Zealand prudes, and it's not actually been some epic battle to be his authentic self against the finger-wagging judgey mcjudgersons. It's not been audacious; it hasn't even been interesting, except as a spectacle of dissolution. Sorry; Nick, but alcoholism and swinging are frightfully common, relatively speaking, among certain types of suburban/ ex-urban/ rural middle-aged couples in MN. You just had the means and the lack of real-world responsibilities/ accountability to turn it up to 11. And going big made it seeder, not less so.
The reality is that absolutely everything goes back to two things: 1) his (at minimum) self-centered and narcissistic tendencies (clinical or not); and 2) substances that with overuse/misuse/abuse (maybe even dependency, though he's not been helpless; it's been a choice) have corroded both his perception and his reality of what is quality and what should be standards. That's it. Literally everything out of control and chaotic and sub-par in his life is down to those things.
(Again, not incorporating the possibility of really dark stuff in this comment bc I don't yet know enough to comment on the drug test results for the daughter, and I don't like McBride-type hysteria. But I do have
questions for a separate comment later.)