"I'm scared of being out of breath and having hypoxia all the time. I read an article by a pulmonary therapist guy saying even 'little bits' of hypoxia add up."
Funny, how she's never bothered to read any articles by an "endocrinologist guy" who says that even "little bits" of hyperglycemia add up. Her house is burning down, but she's worried about the leaky roof.
"Very scared of the new cardiologist blowing me off but also scared of the POTS diagnosis bcuz it's not curable and it's forever."
Gee, why might the cardiologist "blow her off"? That she's an obese, noncompliant, heavily insulin-dependent type 2 diabetic, with a fatty liver, who absolutely refuses to hear about, much less consider, weight loss, and engages in stupid little power/control games under the guise of being a C-PTSD-stricken ED survivor, and has gone through god-knows-how-many health care providers in the past few years—that couldn't possibly give him grounds to take anything she says with a five-ton boulder of salt, could it?
"I got covid bcuz we went to 1 outdoor kids birthday party after hardcore isolation from March to October. And like even if it wasn't covid, I know the exact week this started. Cuz it's never stopped!"
Okay, this is absolute bullshit. Even if everybody at the party was unmasked, the chance of transmission outdoors, in an uncrowded setting, was close to zero. And I'd almost guarantee that Kelly, and most of the other adults present, were masked, because that's a given in the ultra-liberal circles she would allow her kids to socialize in.
According to Kelly, that was her first social event after being on "hardcore isolation" for over seven months—seven months in which she gained more weight and engaged in no meaningful physical activity. When a previously healthy person does that, they're going to go to shit; after seven months they'll feel like weak, no-stamina garbage. When an unhealthy obese person does it, the effects will be bad enough to send their overall health into a nosedive—one from which they might not be able to recover.
I think Kelly had to exert herself just enough at that birthday party to finally experience just how out of shape she had become, and it came as such a shock she either assumed she had caught Covid, or used that as her cover story because she doesn't want to face being fat, out-of-shape, and being in failing health precisely because of that. She can do nothing about "long Covid," and is therefore free of responsibility; but if she has Fat Blob Syndrome, the onus is on her to fix it. So yeah, guess which she wants it to be?
"My PCP at the time was like, prolly anemia. That was prolly anti fat bias and lack of tests at play. And now me & my fam is affected forever."
Anemia is pretty common in type 2 diabetics; kidney damage can lead to it, as can use of some pharmaceuticals. The symptoms are similar to what Kelly keeps describing, so yes, of course her PCP was going to consider that as a possibility. And what tests did Kelly think should have been done? She has admitted that nobody thought she had Covid because she didn't have symptoms of it.
"Even I can lean into all I've learned about beautiful, hot, amazing disabled ppl I feel scared about how ppl will view me, and the cost."
So she's learned all about "beautiful, hot, amazing" disabled people, but has never learned about resourceful, capable, and determined disabled people. Leading a good life as a disabled person is all about being seen as sexually desirable, and not adapting so you can still be a functioning adult and meet your obligations.
As for how people will view her, they'll view her as a fat woman in a wheelchair or using other assistive devices, as opposed to a fat woman who is still ambulatory. Most will scarcely bother to pay her much attention at all, because she's a drab, sexless blob, and in no way "beautiful, hot, amazing."
The ones who are most likely to judge her harshly are the ones closest to her, who know how full of shit she is, and how she's willfully eating herself to death. They know she could be and do differently, but chooses not to, and they will thus have a lot less patience.
