Here is a little reeecap for you guys, Strawberry Douche is my inspo for this one!
She ran outta medicine two weeks ago and didn't see her psychiatrist for 6 munts until today because "she was doing so well" and she has been a moody and an insufferable bitch because of it. The mood stabilizer has been increased in dosage, and it scares her.
"I try...so hard to have a smile..." Much sad blubbering, "Its so hard to be on a platform where no one wants you to talk about these things. Its trauma."
She is scared to see a therapist to talk about her trauma, would rather wallow in self pity, "its too hard" she whines!
Feels SO GOOD talking to a camera about her problems, I guess talking to someone who is qualified to actually help with solutions is just too unbearable
"Wow, I am getting so old" she is still crying, rather fatly I might add
"I want you guys to see what I am dealing with. There is just...a lot going on...things I want to scream out to the world, this is my life, this is what I am going through, these are the things that are haunting me...but I can't."
Wow, she is kinda coming unravelled here. But, "just how the wind blows" according to her
Doing some gift wrappin', Becky is gone! No doubt fetching food
*loud wrapping paper noises and heavy breathing*
SURPRISES, MAN!
Around the 8 minute mark now, she's having difficulties standing to wrap a present
"Do you guise like to wrap presents? I do not. This is why I use gift bags!"
This chick is fucking crazy. Crying and then in the next scene laughing like a damn maniac.
"Hahahaha, YALL. Where's the tape???" Underneath your fupa, where else?
*thrashing noises and crinkling paper, accompanied with heavy breathing and panting*
"I feel like I hid...the biggin...very well."
Becky just got home, got Amber something gorls!
"CAN I VLAWG IT??"
Cabbage Patch Advent Calendar
Cue weird fucking...laughter
She likes weird doo dads
Pokemon cards, magic the gathering cards, yanno
Never heard of garbage pail kids!!! Was like "Whuuuuut?"
"Why am I so excited???" She asks as she is about to tear into the cardboard. Because you are obviously off your meds gorl. She is very unbalanced in this video.
She proceeds to open all of them up to day 7, a lot of painful laughing and chitter chatter about Becky opening up her entire sock calendar in a day
She wants a 365 day advent calendar!!!
Got some pantry organizers, gonna use em in the fridge! She bought some of those in the last place before, but I guess those were given to Eric and Ricky
"Trying to read the comments a little more" oh boy here we go
She likes to see what her gorls are commenting on when it comes to her videos
Someone pointed out her expensive lego habits, calling her out for throwing them back in a box
"Its not my style to display legos"
She doesn't mean to be wasteful! Its just a hobby!
Her spending hundreds on legos is therapeutic for her and she has been going through more anxiety as of late! So it completely justifies her buying plastic and then throwing it in a drawer!
She is NOT irresponsible with her money! Those hundreds could go towards therapy and actually help her anxiety instead of putting a lego shaped bandaid on her problems, but FUCK YOU! She do what she want!
MUH ANXIETY, Better to play with legos instead of eating!!
Stuffing her face with food takes away her negative feelings, but legos have become her new therapy
She wants to build, not collect
ONLY BUILD, NO COLLECT!
She ain't gonna stop building them
But throwing them in a box is the most productive thing she can do right now
Too lazy to open the 8th day on her calendar, gets Becky to do it for her
MACAROOOON EARRINS
"Go fetch you a gift baaabeee!"
Becky got a size 6 XL Spongebob shirt that says "bros on it." Even though Squidward hates their guts!
Becky loves it! "Owehh, I love it babe!" Becky wheezes
"I thought you had it, so it scured me." A lot of things scare Amber, anyone else notice that?
End of da night, getting ready to take a shower
End of night routine
Brushes her hair before it gets wet, takes her makeup off, takes her jewelry off
Taking her makeup off, lookin' ike a fetus (her words, not mine)
Literally telling us all her products she is using
Gonna cuddle with Twinkie Storr
Hope you guise enjoyed this vlog
Byeee!