[–]Charming-River87
When I was a kid, I used to daydream about a future where you could scan somebody’s brain and know everything about them.
I often would think “If they scanned my brain, they would see I’m basically a boy.” Then, I would move on with my day, not giving it more thought.
[–]lilasundaridd
As early as elementary school, I remember asking my mom when I would look like a boy (like my older brother) and when I'd grow a dick.
A lot of thoughts about peeing standing up and some times trying and failing, which was a mess that I got in trouble for.
[–]xx0pxison0xx
I remember being 5 years old and screaming at the top of my lungs, crying because I couldn't be a boy I then proceeded to pray every night (I have never been religious, never will be) for God to at least give me a flat chest if I HAD to grow into a girl
I also cried over a lot of "boy" things, like "girls can't play football" id always cry and respond with "I'm not a girl", or not being able to take my top off in summer because "girls can't do that", "but I'm a boy too" was always my response, Ive always hated being a girl I just never had the words to express that I'm trans until I was maybe 12?
I also was crying about "boy things"!
Omfg yes!
Whenever someone asked for “help from a strong boy” or shit like that I was throwing myself in voluntarily. But obvs only cause I was a feminist
i also prayed every night for a flat chest 
[–]Expert-Vast-1521
Insisting that all “girl clothes” are itchy even if half of them were not, so that I wouldn't be forced to wear them.
Learning about hormonal imbalance and thinking, I wish I had that.
Being very very happy when in stupid boy vs girl memes, I was like the boy.
Trying to lift shopping bags, heavy items from mom and dad because it's boys job to help their families as children.
Feeling good that idk how to cook or clean ( I am spoiled, we have maids and mom never insisted like other girls because she was forced as a 10-year-old to fill 15-20 kg water barrels in her village)
Watching gay media, because it brings butterflies to my stomach
[–]averie-end
Not a specific thought, but I was mostly friends with boys as a little kid, and hung out with my male cousin rather than his sister, and so on, until the norms of being in elementary school into second or third grade pushed me to be closer with girls (I did have a couple close female friends in grades K-1, but I had more male friends).
Girls can also have mostly male friends, but it was probably a bit of a sign
I was also into some boy interests and many gender neutral ones, more than girl stuff- ie I didn't like dolls or pink, but I liked animals, nature (both I'd consider neutral), and action figures, batman, etc- and again, these are all things girls can also like (and of course girls can also hate dolls and pink! especially when it's forced on them!), but in retrospect, again it might have been a bit of a hint. I also hated being called cute as a kid- like, cry and run away level of hate. Unclear if a gender thing or just because adults say it in such a condescending way, or when a kid is upset, etc.
Anyway into middle and high school and after, when I actually can remember some thoughts-
"For some reason I feel like I like boys in the way gays guys like boys"
"What if we did a photoshoot where I was dressed like a boy?"
"I'm going to bind at school just for a day to practice for a cosplay. No other reason." [it was only one day bc binding with ace bandages is ass and I'm glad I didn't get into the habit]
"Wouldn't it be fun if I dressed up like a boy now and then, for no reason?"
"Wouldn't it be fun if I dressed up like a boy with my boyfriend, so no one would object to us going off alone together?"
"Wouldn't it be fun if I dressed like a boy and made out with my boyfriend?"
Omfg yes, the “liking boys in a gay way” thing used to confuse me so much
To the point where I had a boyfriend and something in me felt like that was a gay relationship and it rlly hurt me that he always told me he wasn’t gay/bisexual cause wdym? (Mind you back then I was hyperfeminine with rlly long hair, only wearing skirts, but still something felt off lmao)
[–]footnote_thoughts
When I was 5 or 6, I was at my older cousins birthday party and it was pirate themed, I
remember he had this awesome pirate themed cake and I remember wishing I could have a pirate cake because “thats what boys had”
[–]LocustMuscles
“I don’t think I like girls in the way a girl likes girls” was one of my first.
I was also insistent on being considered a tomboy despite being very feminine
[–]G00se_neck
When I was 5 I vividly remember thinking that 'I wanted to be a boy.' I don't think there was anything that led to that it just popped into my mind. But I was like 'oh I can't do that though because God made me this way.'
So I settled on trying to be a tom girl since I thought that was the closest I could get. I realized I was trans when I was 10 because my sibling came out as non-binary and explained what the LGBTQ was to me.
[–]MercyPewPew
-I joined the Girl Scouts in like second grade then very promptly quit after two meetings because it was too girly
-In the same vein,
I was always jealous of the Boy Scouts for being able to do fun activities and I'm still kinda salty I could never join
-I arm wrestled a boy in elementary school and
when I lost he said it was because I was a girl. I remember being confused because I'd never really thought of myself as a girl before
-I wore oversized shirts and had massive anxiety about starting my period when I first entered puberty.
I was terrified of my body changing
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I would repeatedly ask my high school boyfriend if he would still date me if I was a guy (he always said yes and it made me feel amazing)
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I would wish that I would be reborn a gay man once I died
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I always gravitated towards boy's toys because I thought they were way cooler and didn't understand why people thought it was weird
I also quit the Girl Scouts after one meeting in first grade 
I was jealous about not being able to join the Boy Scouts…
[–]Odd-Ad4172
I remember when I was too young to place an age timeframe,
I was so proud of myself for peeing facing the toilet because I thought it was the same thing as my grandpa and male cousin standing to to pee.
There are two things specifically that now I look back on and know they were clear signs that I was trans.
The first one was that I remember having complete meltdowns that I couldn't get the right clothes that would turn me into Goku. I didn't like Goku, I wanted to be him. I also had this situation happen with other male fictional characters but not on the same level as Goku. These happened around 3rd-4th grade.
Then in about 5th grade, I got super into minecraft youtubers. Specially just male ones (stampy, iballisticsquid, captainsparklez, syndacite, etc). I remember thinking to myself "I want to grow up and be just like them" as in a youtuber like that.
But every time I imagined myself grown up, I could only imagine myself as a man. I remember it being weird but had to force myself to see myself grown up doing this thing I admired as a woman to where it felt fake. Like forcing yourself to imagine you turning into a unicorn realistically. And at this point, I had never even heard of trans people before.
[–]Moist-Cheesecake
This question is so funny because I remember so many thoughts I passed off as "just being a really passionate feminist".
Softball was misogynistic, so I had to play baseball "for feminism".
Wearing a bra was misogynistic because boys didn't have to, so I didn't wear one wherever possible "for feminism".
Getting a period was misogyny, obviously, so I wanted BC or surgery to stop getting one. "For feminism".
Wearing stockings/tights, and wearing the girls school uniform/dress code? You guessed it, I couldn't, because I was such a good feminist.
Anything where girls and boys were split up - sex ed, Scouts, etc -
I swore my kids wouldn't participate like I had to. Feminism. Lmfao
There were so many other examples I have of this thinking - going topless/bathing suits, helping carry chairs when someone asked for "any strong boys", etc.
I also distinctly remember throwing a huge fit around 6 years old when the doctor asked for a urine sample and saying I was being "treated like an animal" (I had dysphoria about having to sit down and not being able to aim into the cup).
ETA: Remembered I was also REALLY insistent about being a tomboy, NLOG, etc lmaooooook
[–]pisarzyna
I don't know if this is exactly "trans thoughts", but when I was in elementary school (five grade to be precise, so I was probably ten or eleven years old)
our teacher told us about intersex girl born with testicles and I was really envious of that 
After that I have had similar thoughts when I was fifteen or sixteen,
in my suppressing phase. I was jealous of women with PCOS or medical problems that made them have to go through hysterectomy. (Yeah, I felt like POS because of that)
[–]Numerical-Wordsmith
“I can’t decide whether this feeling is “I want to kiss Alan Doyle” or “I want to BE Alan Doyle” (teenage me)
[–]RLburner0
Pre-kindergarten insisted on being called a boy and went by the names of various fictional characters. (Some things never change, I suppose.)
I took a ballet after school class in lower elementary, and there were like two boys in it, and I remember wishing I could do the class as a boy.
Hated the idea of having breasts since I learned I would grow them.
Thought I was a lesbian (middle school) and aro (high school) because I didn’t want to be seen as a girl in a straight relationship (and was so grossed out by that thought that I assumed I was grossed out by dating men in general.)
For as long as I can remember:
Deliberately tried to do things to be a more unattractive (and therefore non feminine) girl.
Prided myself in being “not like other girls.”
Felt left out and scandalized when students were being split up by gender, and I had to go with the girls.
Hated how overly feminized menstrual supplies often are.
Hated dresses and pink (from a sensory perspective, AND a femininity perspective.)
[–]thant0ph0bia_00
Honestly I never thought much about it before my gender identity started really bugging me at 18 (I'd previously struggled w it at 13-17 as well but it was easier to shove it down and ignore back then).
As a kid I often acted what friends and family would call "boyish". If we were gonna do roleplaying of some sort in school breaks and such I was always a boy or an animal. I also loved dressing up and while I've always loved things like dresses, heels, makeup etc, my favorite outfit was my Aladdin outfit (child friendly, it was covering my whole body but it was sewn with the vest and all onto a red full body suit. It actually looked nothing like the characters outfit but it was the closest we could get back then lol).
I loved pretending to be a boy with long hair because I loved beautiful boys who had long hair and always wanted to be like that myself. That continued during my teen years too, by myself I'd imagine myself as a boy, dress as masc as I could and be in my head pretending so I could escape my real body for a while. I also had a habit of pretending I was my barbie doll's boyfriend a lot lmao. After a while
my chest grew and I started feeling way more uncomfortable with myself so I only ever wore tight, flattening sports bras and at 13 I chopped my past collar bones length hair all the way off into a "boy cut" (though with a flare, I always dressed "odd" and so I had a hairstyle similar to what Bill Kaulitz had in the german monsoon mv and then I always wore leather jackets and studded belts and whatnot). I also started using my tights/leggings to try and flatten my chest and for a brief period used the bandage method (I wish I knew it was dangerous but I didn't even know what binding was I only knew I was happy with the look
) and got made fun of by my friends because they didn't understand why I always tried to look like a guy. I also wore a special outfit I had A LOT, it was made up by my only pair of too big baggy jeans, an oversized tshirt and my bestie's brother's old hooded jacket, I looked extremely much like a boy then and it was my favorite outfit to wear at 14. To be fair I didn't get any of this either before I saw some kid younger than me on tv talking about being a trans girl. That's when I really started going "wait, is that an option? does it work for born girls too?" and went down a rabbit hole lol. It's funny to think back and realize how much of my preferences and behaviors back then kinda explained how I feel about my gender today.
[–]plantdad05
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he only thing i can really remember is that i never liked having boobs. i was kind of an early bloomer and my friends would be like wow im so jealous of your chest! mine is so flat! and i never understood why they would be jealous,
i hated my chest and thought it looked so ugly and wrong on me
[–]strvngeparadise
i dont have many of these tbh but i remember in kindergarten wed like all go to the bathroom together yk and some of the boys would go to urinals and the girls and other boys just the regular toilets. all the stalls had really low doors so teachers could see you lol for whatever reason.
anyways yeah i wanted to try to pee standing up bc i didnt understand why i couldnt do that, it seemed a lot easier! my teacher saw and got mad lol
[–]Kamyuwu
The most insane thought i had without realizing was
"i wish i had breast cancer so i could cut them off and be rid of them already"
This specific desire actually came up multiple times lol
[–]LordLaz1985
I wanted very badly to look androgynous as a teen and didn’t know why.
Also, I was always fascinated with the idea of salmacians, and didn’t know why.
[–]sassy-ass-scientist
Even from when I was very very young (like, <5 years old), I hated “girly” colors or clothes (like dresses and skirts).
I hated the “girly” toys you’d get at McDonalds and places like that so I’d always ask for the boy ones. I collected model cars and trucks and hated playing with dolls, because that was a girl activity. Mind you at the time I had no idea anything about transgender people or gender dysphoria whatsoever.
In elementary school I had a lot of boy friends. I didn’t understand why I couldn’t have sleepovers with them. I wanted to be on the baseball team and didn’t want to play softball. In fact I refused to do it, because I wouldn’t do anything that was only for girls. I wanted to be seen as boyish.
In middle school, I started wanting to cut my hair short and wear boys’ clothing. I started thinking it would be better to be a boy. Like you OP,
my mom told me all girls think that at some point, and I still didn’t know much about transgender people or dysphoria.
Then right around hitting puberty I finally thought about my body, and would spend the nights crying that I didn’t have a penis. I wasn’t sure why except that I just genuinely thought it would be better if I had one.
I wanted to experience sex, but from the perspective of a boy. I was thoroughly upset this would never happen for me.
In high school I started trying to embrace my femininity more, but still hated the terms woman or girl. They made my skin crawl and I refused to ever be called ma’am or anything like that. Even when I was trying to wear makeup or skirts to fit in. I would literally say I didn’t identify that way, and it still somehow didn’t register to me that I was trans, fully.
In college, I told my partner verbatim: “if I had to pick a gender, it would probably be agender. Or nonbinary. I just know it wouldn’t be a girl.” And still didn’t realize what I was saying.
It still took me until my mid-20s to fully come to terms with myself…. Looking back though, it was more than obvious. I wish I’d had the vocabulary or resources available to me then. I wonder who I’d be today if I had.
[–]strawberrydemise
Elementary:
-Being insanely upset I couldn’t go topless in the yard like other boys (this was years before I even developed breasts)
-being confused why my mom thought it was inappropriate to invite boys to sleepovers, but not girls (when I knew I was attracted to girls by 4th grade or earlier)
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crying when I was dressed up as Harry one year for Halloween and a classmate’s parent thought I was Hermione (I had long, brown, bushy hair and bangs like her, but had his glasses and scar and had tucked my hair away into a cheesy wizard hat)
I obviously no longer support JK Rowling or her work
Middle school/highschool: -not understanding my girl friends crushing on boys
(I only ever felt gender envy, but didn’t have the words for it at the time. & turns out I’m just not really attracted to cis men in that way).
-mainly wanting to cosplay male characters like Kabuto from Naruto
-worrying people would think I was a lesbian when I cut all my hair off (still didn’t realize it was because I was trying to perform hyperfemininity to mask both my body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria)
-but simultaneously it felt good when a fast food worker said “have a good day, boys” to me and a male friend when grabbing food after school
-preferring to play as/make male characters in video games
Took me until 29/last year when I started dating my trans partner to fully come to terms with it and start hormones though
[–]ThatguycalledFinn
2nd grade Biology class when they taught us the basics about puberty and what happens when you grow up. I don't remember much from elementary school (obviously) but that was one of the few things that I'm never going to forget because looking back, it is just so stupid. My thoughts after that biology class during lunch break were basically:
"I don't want to have that and I don't really need it. If I'm ever in a relationship, I'll just be the male partner and then I won't be the one giving birth and all of that anyway. So why tf do I get tiddies when I grow up?? If I think about being a boy, I'll eventually become one and don't grow tiddies.... right? And even if I'llbe a boy... why do I het a dick? Isn't that aerodynamically stupid because thousands of years ago when you had to run away from danger, It would just be in the way....? And I mean technically I don't need it anyways, because the world is already overpopulated and there's no need to contribute to that."
I told an afab friend about this during lunch break as well and they were just like " bro
.... are you high or somethin?"
Looking back now, it just was straightup obvious, but I'm still kinda in denial, because I didn't know what trans* was at the time if that makes sense.
[–]Glitch-Strike
- Always hung around boys, cuz i wanted to be "one of the boys"
- Acted overly tough, and didnt like when teachers said "boys move the chairs/tables" in school
- Always played male characters in pretend and games
- Loved short hair
- Always imagined myself as a boy
ItWas Obvious
[–]Klunsischnunsi
Ohhh that’s a long list xD
“Why can’t a dick be the default genitalia? Wouldn’t everyone be happier with one?”
“My life would be easier if I was a boy” (not cause I was thinking abt patriarchy or stuff, just cause I somehow had the underlying feeling that I’d feel less off if I was a boy)
I was once talking to a friend about my eating disorder and body dysmorphia and told her “I thought I was trans for some time cause my dysmorphia was so bad”. Well…
Since I’m agender it never bothered me that I had boobs, but I dislike my genitalia, so the dissonance of being happy abt my boobs but wanting to grow a dick and a beard and have my voice drop was so confusing. Then,
one of my very religious, homo- and transphobic friends found out that I was writing gay shortstories and, cause she only found out abt the mlm ones, she basically told me that it was okay “cause I was a woman and therefore it would make sense that I wrote about men”. So for a few years
I convinced myself that I wasn’t trans but a straight woman fetishizing men cause for some reason that felt easier to deal with (
I guess cause the thought of being trans kinda made me feel helpless, while fetishization is disgusting but it’s more of a choice? Idk it was weird)
I once told a friend that I couldn’t be bisexual, cause
“I dislike my own genitalia so much, how could I like that part on another woman?” Turns out I am in fact bisexual xD
[–]mydogiseatingmyfeet
I was very upset with Mulan and Moto Crossed when the protagonists went back to being girls.
They had those bisexual kings in the bag and they really went back to living as a woman. Tragic.
[–]AnEckoInTime
Anytime I read mlm stories I felt so bad because I wanted to be in an mlm relationship and thought I was fetishizing gay men.
