🐮 Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

[Anaiah Carlson]

So it sounds like your family perceive her as "a bad influence" and have little concern about your deranged obsession and trying to address that. Have they ever suggested that you see a mental health professional or do they somehow think you'll magically turn into a normal, functional human being without intervention?

I'm also curious about how you've represented this to your family. You were friends with this woman, and internet friends at that. You were not in a relationship, however casual, so what is there to "move on" from? Far longer and more committed friendships and relationships end all the time with less drama than this has - it's hard to believe that your family wouldn't be trying to strong-arm you into heavy duty mental health intervention if they knew the full story and especially if they knew of your intention to resume stalking this woman in the future.

They are concerned, but they don't realize the full extent of my obsession. But they think I have a huge problem and are afraid I will never let go of this. They want me to forget her and put all this drama into the past. I have brought up to my dad the possibility of seeing a professional therapist at the advice of some of my friends and my dad thinks its a good idea. But he would only do that if I am the one who initiates it and pursues it. As he is the one who would have to pay for it and i have no insurance.

Pretty sure it's because the post ratings she was giving out in this thread were basically white-knighting you and whoever added the tags decided to have fun with that fact. You being butthurt about it will only reinforce the joke.

I'm not offended, they can stay. I was just trying to be nice to her and avoid false implications that the tags inclusions indicate.

 

[Cato]

They are concerned, but they don't realize the full extent of my obsession. But they think I have a huge problem and are afraid I will never let go of this. They want me to forget her and put all this drama into the past. I have brought up to my dad the possibility of seeing a professional therapist at the advice of some of my friends and my dad thinks its a good idea. But he would only do that if I am the one who initiates it and pursues it. As he is the one who would have to pay for it and i have no insurance.

Wait he thinks it's a good idea for you to see a therapist and is willing to pay for it, but he just wants you to set it up to show you are serious about it? What are you waiting for?

 

[repentance]

But he would only do that if I am the one who initiates it and pursues it. As he is the one who would have to pay for it and i have no insurance.

So why haven't you initiated it? Is there a part of you which wants to continue being delusional, dysfunctional and miserable? Does this insane lovequest give you a sense of purpose and do you have no idea what you'd do if all the time and energy you devote to it was freed up?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

How's a therapist going to make my decisions for me? The best a therapist could do is try to convince me to change my mind. I seriously doubt a therapist will help me get over Tamar. To get over Tamar, it needs to be a personal decision I make when I realize that there is no longer any hope to change her mind.

I'll use therapy as a bargaining chip if I am arrested and there is a trial.

 

[Tranhuviya]

I'll use therapy as a bargaining chip if I am arrested and there is a trial.

At least you're honest.

 

[Null]

I'll use therapy as a bargaining chip if I am arrested and there is a trial.

You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law.

 

[Sailor_Jupiter]

How's a therapist going to make my decisions for me? The best a therapist could do is try to convince me to change my mind. I seriously doubt a therapist will help me get over Tamar. To get over Tamar, it needs to be a personal decision I make when I realize that there is no longer any hope to change her mind.

Tamar has become an IDOL to you. You're placing your love for her above your love for God with this obsession. It's bad for your spiritual life to make an idol of another human being. You won't be able to find spiritual peace until you pursue God more obsessively than you're pursuing HER right now. Hashem has said, "You shall have no other gods before Me." You are not keeping this commandment. You must find peace with God apart from Tamar. Remember that David was led astray by his lust for a married woman, and the Lord cursed his household: "the sword shall never depart from your household." Even you are not greater than King David. This obsession is hurting your life. You're looking to her to make you whole, when in reality our wholeness can only come from Hashem. Christ has said that if you seek Him with your whole heart, you will find Him. Please seek God instead of this mortal woman who cannot fulfil you.

 

[repentance]

How's a therapist going to make my decisions for me? The best a therapist could do is try to convince me to change my mind. I seriously doubt a therapist will help me get over Tamar. To get over Tamar, it needs to be a personal decision I make when I realize that there is no longer any hope to change her mind.

A clinical psychologist/psychiatrist could diagnose what is actually wrong with you and treat that. You have, and act on, incredibly destructive impulses. Quite apart from the distress you inflict on others, you make *yourself* miserable as well.

You seem to recognise that your behaviour is far from normal and invites increasingly undesirable consequences, so why are you unwilling to look at options which might give you better coping skills at a minimum or make your obsessive thoughts and behaviours disappear entirely at best? Even leaving Tamar aside, you don't seem grounded in reality at all (how on earth do you think that you're magically going to become a Canadian citizen or survive 5 years of college, or get jobs to save huge amounts of money - wishing won't make any of those things so).

Reality will win over fantasy every single time, so basing your plans for the future on pure fantasy makes misery and frustration certain. You clearly lack the tools to deal with the clash between reality and your wishful thinking, yet you're reluctant to do anything to acquire those skills. Why?

 

[LD 3187]

Pretty sure it's because the post ratings she was giving out in this thread were basically white-knighting you and whoever added the tags decided to have fun with that fact. You being butthurt about it will only reinforce the joke.

When the thread subject answer questions in a straightfoward manner it's informative, even if i disagree with it. The tags had nothing to do with this, they are there since the start and there were more too. Now let's talk what this is about yes? You are buttblasted because i rated great contributions such as this:

So what you are saying is that you are a repressed gay furry pedo?

That's called "powerleveling" here and is frowned upon. Besides, I don't need to justify myself to someone who thinks being a NEET leech on his parents is somehow a virtue. Any objective third-party person here can already draw their own conclusions simply from the respective attitudes the two of us have expressed towards work.

I can't wait for the results of this catfishing effort to get posted here.

EDIT - I also wonder if this is why @CasualSeppuku was rating my posts in this thread "autistic."

As autistic. Because they were. They looked like low-effort trolling but you took this as some personal vendetta against you. You keep name dropping me here and it's getting boring.

TL,DR: Hop off my dick.

 

[Cato]

When the thread subject answer questions in a straightfoward manner it's informative, even if i disagree with it. The tags had nothing to do with this, they are there since the start and there were more too. Now let's talk what this is about yes? You are buttblasted because i rated great contributions such as this:






As autistic. Because they were. They looked like low-effort trolling but you took this as some personal vendetta against you. You keep name dropping me here and it's getting boring.

TL,DR: Hop off my dick.

Settle down. I believe this is only the second time I mentioned you, the first time being in relation to some unknown female user here allegedly being sympathetic to him and you being the prime suspect, and this time it was in response to discussion about you that others brought up. I didn't add the tags but was making an educated guess. The only autism here is coming from you.

 

[The Iconoclast]

When the thread subject answer questions in a straightfoward manner it's informative, even if i disagree with it. The tags had nothing to do with this, they are there since the start and there were more too. Now let's talk what this is about yes? You are buttblasted because i rated great contributions such as this:

(snip'd)

As autistic. Because they were. They looked like low-effort trolling but you took this as some personal vendetta against you. You keep name dropping me here and it's getting boring.

TL,DR: Hop off my dick.

Dear lord, there are no breaks on this train; it all just goes deeper.

(Sarcasm, just in case)

 

[Yellow Yam Scam]

Andrew, are you familiar with the stuff involving Tamar that happened in Roanoke?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

A clinical psychologist/psychiatrist could diagnose what is actually wrong with you and treat that. You have, and act on, incredibly destructive impulses. Quite apart from the distress you inflict on others, you make *yourself* miserable as well.

You seem to recognise that your behaviour is far from normal and invites increasingly undesirable consequences, so why are you unwilling to look at options which might give you better coping skills at a minimum or make your obsessive thoughts and behaviours disappear entirely at best? Even leaving Tamar aside, you don't seem grounded in reality at all (how on earth do you think that you're magically going to become a Canadian citizen or survive 5 years of college, or get jobs to save huge amounts of money - wishing won't make any of those things so).

Reality will win over fantasy every single time, so basing your plans for the future on pure fantasy makes misery and frustration certain. You clearly lack the tools to deal with the clash between reality and your wishful thinking, yet you're reluctant to do anything to acquire those skills. Why?

If I get a degree and have very high skills in languages, I can get hired for a language job of some kind that is a $50,000 job. Easier said than done, but certainly not implausible especially if I do very well in college. I want to try to space out my education and do it at a more relaxing pace. Fewer credits instead of cramming so many at one time. If I get a $50,000 dollar job, then within a few years, I have enough to buy Tamar a house fully paid for that she can keep all in her name. If i get a $25,000 dollar job, then it will take double the time. I'll tell her, Tamar, as a gift, if you will reconsider being my friend and testing me over a one year period, I will buy you any house you want that is for sale. You just tell me which house you want, and I'll buy it for you.

My mom is a canadian citizen from birth and she still is one, so according to the laws of Canada, I was born a canadian citizen. I just need to get it officially registered and I'll automatically receive legal recognition of what I am already supposed to have.

http://www.cic.gc.ca/english/citizenship/rules/index.asp "

• you were born outside Canada and at least one of your parents was born in Canada,"
  
  

 

[Jan_Hus]

If I get a degree and have very high skills in languages, I can get hired for a language job of some kind that is a $50,000 job. Easier said than done, but certainly not implausible especially if I do very well in college. I want to try to space out my education and do it at a more relaxing pace. Fewer credits instead of cramming so many at one time. If I get a $50,000 dollar job, then within a few years, I have enough to buy Tamar a house fully paid for that she can keep all in her name. If i get a $25,000 dollar job, then it will take double the time. I'll tell her, Tamar, as a gift, if you will reconsider being my friend and testing me over a one year period, I will buy you any house you want that is for sale. You just tell me which house you want, and I'll buy it for you.

My mom is a canadian citizen from birth and she still is one, so according to the laws of Canada, I was born a canadian citizen. I just need to get it officially registered and I'll automatically receive legal recognition of what I am already supposed to have.

http://www.cic.gc.ca/english/citizenship/rules/index.asp "

• you were born outside Canada and at least one of your parents was born in Canada,"
  

What part about "this woman has a restraining order out on you" do you not understand?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Andrew, are you familiar with the stuff involving Tamar that happened in Roanoke?

I know almost everything about her that is available online. She was the queen, if that's what you are talking about..

 

[Yellow Yam Scam]

I know almost everything about her that is available online. She was the queen, if that's what you are talking about..

I don't think it is? Stuff I'm talking about was in mid 2015.

 

[The Iconoclast]

If I get a degree and have very high skills in languages, I can get hired for a language job of some kind that is a $50,000 job. Easier said than done, but certainly not implausible especially if I do very well in college.

Well, employers do have the habit of doing background checks, y'know?

And if I just...

(Note that the first few images in the image results link here, as well)

Yeeeeeeah. I highly doubt employers would jump at the opportunity to have an openly admitted stalker working for them. Much less as a teacher or professor, since I'm assuming that that's what "language job" entails. Maybe. I could be wrong.

This actually reminds me of another, more infamous person who is in a similar boat. Except his isn't theoretical.

Also, this was done in incognito mode. I don't know if it makes the search results less biased/personalized, but whatever.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

I don't think it is? Stuff I'm talking about was in mid 2015.

I don't remember, but I've probably seen it already. I would advise you not to share it here out of respect for her privacy.

 

[Jan_Hus]

I don't remember, but I've probably seen it already. I would advise you not to share it here out of respect for her privacy.

Says the man stalking this crazy woman....

 

[repentance]

If I get a degree and have very high skills in languages, I can get hired for a language job of some kind that is a $50,000 job. Easier said than done, but certainly not implausible especially if I do very well in college. I want to try to space out my education and do it at a more relaxing pace. Fewer credits instead of cramming so many at one time. If I get a $50,000 dollar job, then within a few years, I have enough to buy Tamar a house fully paid for that she can keep all in her name.

You're not even starting college until next year and then you're going to take 5 years to do a basic language degree. Even if that would get you a job, you're then looking at several years before you could save enough to buy a house (it takes most people several years to save a deposit alone). Even is she was willing to give you the benefit of the doubt - and she has no reason to at all - nobody is going to wait a decade for you to get your shit together. What makes you think that she won't already have a house in 10 years?

You talk as though time and her life are going to stand still for the next 10 years while you position yourself to make her a totally mercenary offer. It's reminiscent of Elliot Rodger's belief that women would throw themselves at him if only he could acquire enough money, and I have no doubt you'll seek to punish Tamar when your plan fails.